July 28, 2023

Awakening to New Realities with Mycailin Callahan

Awakening to New Realities with Mycailin Callahan
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Have you ever wondered about the power of consciousness, manifestation, and spiritual awakening? Of course, you have. That's why you're here!

This episode offers a riveting conversation with Mycailin Callahan, a mystic profoundly connected to her guide, Michael, since childhood. Mycailin's journey is an enthralling testament to the power of spiritual growth, self-awareness, and the capacity to change life through conscious thought and action. She shares her early experiences of spiritual ecstasy and a life-altering Near-Death Experience at 20, revealing the blessings and lessons she gleaned from a challenging childhood.

Mycailin illuminates intriguing insights from her NDE, discussing its profound impact on her understanding of desire, consciousness, and manifestation. She recounts her transformative experience of slow motion before a horse accident, illuminating her understanding of her eternal being. We glimpse how she successfully navigated difficult experiences and the ecstatic love that descended over her. Mycailin's story of overcoming suicidal impulses and recovering from a drug interaction is inspiring.

We also explore some deep spiritual concepts, including forgiveness, time and space, and the power of words. Mycailin's perspective on 'No World' is fascinating. She shares how Michael showed her she is a creator of her experience, stories of manifestation, and understanding of reincarnation. The mindful use of words, she believes, can lead to happiness. By the end of this episode, you'll be left with a deeper understanding of spirituality, the power of consciousness, and the transformative potential of Near-Death Experiences. Tune in for her incredible journey of awakening and transformation.

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00:00 - Mycailin Callahan's Spiritual Journey and NDE

14:49 - Learning From Near-Death Experiences

25:19 - Awakening to the Power of Consciousness

33:15 - Discovering the Power of Lucid Dreaming

48:46 - The Concept of No World

01:04:49 - Manifestation and the Power of Words

01:16:51 - Changing the Past, Finding Redemption

01:25:21 - Purpose of NDEs, Helping Others

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Everybody.

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This is Brian, back with another episode of Grief to Growth, and today I've got with me Michaeline Callahan, or Caller's or Friends Caller.

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She grew up as a mystic who calmly experienced ecstasies from the age of five under the guidance of her daemon, michael, and we'll talk about what a daemon or daemon is.

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By the age of 15, she'd become an empiricist.

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She'd set Michael aside as her childhood imaginary friend.

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However, at the age of 20, she had an NDE, and she found Michael again in what she calls the lustrous void, where Michael gave her a life review that was so redemptive she had to return to tell everyone.

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So this was in 1978, though, and the world wasn't ready for the message.

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So fast forward, 45 years later, and she feels that the world is ready because Michael has brought her so much through and brought her so much and restored her vigor so that she, at the age of 65, could complete the mission she rushed back for in 1978.

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So since then, after coming through along illness, she's written several books.

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We're going to talk about some of her books, and she is going around telling people about her story and about her experiences.

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So, with that, I'm really excited to finally have Michaeline Callahan on Grief to Growth.

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I'm great yeah.

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I'm excited to be here as well, Mariah.

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Yeah, we've been Facebook friends for a while and I've seen a couple of your interviews and I'm really, as I said, interested in sharing your story with everyone else.

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You talk about your guide, michael, who you say you've been connected with from a very early age.

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So tell me about that early connection through your NDE, when you were 20.

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Okay, that's really critical too, because now, as I look back at 65, I can see the trajectory of the path, the actual curriculum Michael has had all this time, and it's really in concert with the theme of your show Grief to Growth.

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What he has been teaching me all along is to become lucid, which is defined a particular way by Michael to become lucid in the dream of the world and realize that every time I think I'm suffering or I'm frightened, or I'm angry, or I'm imagining myself unloved, unseen, that it is like a token or a cue to wake me up to the understanding that I have lost my lucidity in the dream of the world and I have imagined myself as some sort of being who can suffer loss and die.

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Okay, let's back up, because we're going to return to that.

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That's an ongoing theme.

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As a child, there was a pedophile in my family not my direct family, it was my granduncle and my father had a very bad temper because he had been abused as a young boy and so my mother regularly would take me and leave me at her mother's house or at her aunt's house.

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Her aunt was wonderful, never had any problems there.

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Grandmother and grandfather on her side wonderful, but they had an outboard motor business and they worked on it, sometimes even on the weekends, and grandmother would leave me at her brother's house and her brother was the pedophile unbeknownst to them apparently.

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I choose to believe she did not know.

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I met Michael the first time in my psyche and this is the first time the grief to growth theme comes up.

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I met him the first time when I was five years old.

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I was around Easter and I was attempting to hide from Alfred that was the pedophile, and I was wearing my Easter dress and Sunday shoes and it was nothing to climb in.

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We were very poor family and these were some of my best clothes and I didn't want to ruin them, and I was always.

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We were always made to be cognizant of our clothes lest we destroy them because they were so expensive, particularly shoes, and I had, on these little slick, sold Sunday shoes and I knew I was never going to get up the tree.

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That Michael suddenly came into my consciousness as this incredibly intelligent presence that I could feel and I could.

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He wasn't speaking in words, he was speaking in concepts and speaking with a forceful love, a love that was not deniable.

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His presence was palpable and he directed me up this tree and I argued with him internally and said I can't get up that tree with these shoes on.

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I'll break my shoes, I'll get a spanky.

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Michael said, don't worry.

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Basically, I'll show you where to put your hands and feet.

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I went to the tree.

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And I went to the tree and, like, the handholds and the foot placings were immediately obvious as they became necessary, and I was guided up this tree.

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And then my grand uncle passed by, looking for me, thrashing the shrubbery which was a azalea hedges along the house, looking for me because I had often hidden there and he had one wooden leg, so he was thrashing the shrubberies with his cane, pushing them aside, looking for me, but it wasn't there.

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This time it was up high.

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There's a funny thing about people, you know, they don't look up that much, so up high I learned to climb.

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I learned to climb as a way of hiding.

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I do a lot of hiding in my life, but when the place where this comes up is.

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Yes, I was repeatedly assaulted by this pedophile, but there were blessings in it and the first blessing was that I found Michael.

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And because I found Michael in my psyche and there was a connection established where I was anxious to hear from him.

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Once you've felt this kind of love, this ecstatic love, descend over your psyche, you want it more and it raises the frisson, you know.

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The hair stands up all over your body and cheese spangles all over.

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You feel like angels are dancing all over your skin, or God has just kissed you on the head.

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You don't know what has happened, but it's so delicious you just want to chase it.

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You want it more and more.

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And so this was a great blessing because, as a five-year-old, to be tuned so deeply inward at that age where you're looking and listening inward literally my life, I went through it looking to provoke the rushes of that chi, the feeling of that presence descending on me, and so if I said or I even thought something and that phenomenon occurred, I attended to it.

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It was like he was teaching me going Marco polo, marco polo, to find him and to do what summoned the chi, my father having the bad temper that he did because of his terrible past.

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He and I had a contest of wills for many years where I just kept loving him and forgiving him, even though he blistered my bum every day okay, every day until I, between the ages of three and eleven.

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I got it some days twice, and he would always weep afterwards and say I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, you deserve a better father.

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I hit you in anger.

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I should never hit you in anger.

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I said terrible, scary things to you in anger.

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I should never speak to you that way.

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And so this incredible bond between daddy and I grew, and over time dad became just sweeter and sweeter and sweeter, and he respected me more and more because I wouldn't lie to him, no matter what he questioned me on.

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Did you do so?

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And so, knowing I was going to get blistered, I would say yes or I didn't.

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Okay, because I couldn't lie.

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First of all, I was a terrible liar.

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It showed all over my face.

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There was absolutely no point in even trying and I knew I'd get it worse if I did lie to him and he discerned it.

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And also because I did not want to offend Michael.

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I did not want to offend this loving presence whom I initially thought was God.

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Okay, now, technically, we're all God, there's nothing here but God, anyway.

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So over the years, I would climb into trees daily to try and get it to rain.

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I would sing to the sky in the summer when it was too hot, we had no air conditioning.

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It was that long ago, yes, sorry.

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And I would climb the trees in the afternoon and sing to the sky, hoping that if I pleased God with my song, he would bless us with rain to cool things down so we could all sing.

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So I went until I was about 15 years old, doing this almost every day in the summer and I thought it was me bringing the rain.

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And well, god bringing it because of my songs.

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And then, at the age of 15, I learned about a weather phenomenon called the Bermuda High.

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The Bermuda High is actually responsible for the rains coming every afternoon between four and six in the summertime in Florida had nothing to do with me and this kind of shocked me into a reorientation.

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All right, all what I considered at that point.

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Suddenly, that's magical thinking.

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I set it aside.

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Okay, michael is not real, that's just something imaginary that I made up because I had such a tormented childhood.

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Part of my greater self created this relationship and this being, this presence.

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Apparently this is, this was the thinking at the time.

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So from 15 to 20, I tried a lot of drugs and I became an empiricist and I became very focused in the physical.

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I was always a very athletic child and rash, because up until 15, I didn't think anything was going to hurt me.

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I appeared to be made of rubber or I had somebody looking after me, absorbing all the blows for me and up until 15 and learning about Bermuda High, I believed it was Michael.

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So then at the age of 20, I was out being rash, riding horseback with a friend of mine.

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I'd forgotten.

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I was on a barrel mare named ticker, very gentle, 13 year old horse, and I had forgotten to bring the feed for her and to lure the male, the stallion that I didn't want to ride, because we didn't have a good rapport, me and the stallion.

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He didn't like me but he liked my friend.

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So I was going to catch him for her and as I'd forgotten the feed, I'm on ticker and I'm saying you know, I bet I can maneuver him into the paddock, chasing him on ticker because she's so maneuverable and then we'll catch him in the little paddock.

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And so I spun about on ticker and we went after this stallion and I was in a hard run not a, not a full out run, a hard gallop, I would say close behind this stallion, very close and he was a big horse.

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He was over 17 hands and everything.

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I don't know if you hands are four inches.

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Four inches, so 17 times four the height of the shoulder.

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Big horse, okay, almost six feet at the shoulder, and everything slipped in the slow motion.

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Now I'm like in jockey styles, standing in the stirrups with my knees bent, you know, with the saddle hitting me in the bottom on every stride and everything suddenly slips into slow motion.

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Now, I've seen this by this time many times in my life.

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Things slip into slow motion whenever something bad is about to unfold for me, and generally I know, with a few seconds lead, what it's to be All right.

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And Michael said to me he's kicking Again, without words.

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This is just an announced concept, an announcing concept.

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He is kicking me and I said he can't get me up here.

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Boy, was I wrong.

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This is where he kicked me.

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Okay, he hit me in the face.

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I never felt the blow.

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I watched the hooves coming towards me in slow motion and just before the impact, I left.

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I rolled left out of my body.

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I had been one to by locate as a child, very easily.

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I would be, for instance, laying in bed and looking at a window.

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And suddenly I'm at the window, looking out the window, but my body's laying in bed.

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I can remember looking out the window, wanting to go out into the yard and play, and that the neighbor had a turkey and a coop behind my auntie's house.

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And I'm standing at the window and suddenly, whoosh, I'm standing over the bird in the cage and, of course, my body's still back in the bed.

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So in this instance, here comes the hoof I roll, left out of my body.

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It's not something I can do at will.

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It happens or it doesn't.

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There I was about 150 feet away, somewhere between 100 and 150.

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And I turn around and I look back and I watched the horse striding, watched the body let go of the reins, the head snapped back, it fell backwards onto the rump of the horse and it bounced a few times.

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As the horse kept striding and I'm thinking, gosh, I hope the feet don't get stuck in the stirrups.

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And they didn't.

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The body went over the back of the rump of the horse, landed on its head and then the shoulders and the hips and the legs hit.

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I was an illustrious vest and I felt perfect.

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I felt so good.

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I said to myself nothing, I'm perfect.

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Nothing can ever hurt me again.

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And suddenly, boom, I'm aware of Michael, I feel his presence and I hear him more or less say to me nothing could have ever hurt you to begin with.

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You're an eternal being, okay?

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Well, the interesting thing at this point is that I can taste not with my mouth but with my being the verity of what he's saying.

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Truth has a taste or a scent.

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Like the scent of mashed potatoes is wedded to the mashed potatoes, to the actual physical thing, so too truth has its own taste.

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Anyway, I knew right away he was telling the truth.

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And then he said well, that being so, why was it also scary?

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And he said because you believed you could suffer loss and die.

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But that was necessary too, because if you had not believed you could suffer loss and die, you would have never taken the experience seriously.

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There wouldn't have been as much, so to speak, skin in the game, and you wouldn't have learned what you went there to learn, nor would have you done what you went there to do.

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And I said well, I don't remember what I went there to do.

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Tell me what it is.

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And he said you went to summon your will.

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Now I said summon my will.

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You mean I went through all of that suffering just to learn or discern what I want, and he said no, you misunderstand what I mean by the will.

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Okay, this juncture I became aware that there is individual desire and then there is the will.

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That is holy, okay.

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By holy, I mean it is holy shared by all creation.

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All creation wills this together.

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We have just forgotten that we will it together.

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And that will is that the venue and every point of consciousness within it awaken and remember its true nature as consciousness itself.

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Because this puts us in our experience of our godly estate, of being able to summon into what we call the real world.

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Okay, that which we desire, which is different from the will, okay.

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Anything that is contrary to the will that is holy is just your personal desire.

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There's nothing necessarily wrong with it, except for that it keeps you from your full attainment and it is perhaps limiting others in their attainment.

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And that full attainment is to your godly estate, so that the physics and he assures me this will happen the physics of the venue will change as we, as humanity, have perfected, perfected our benevolence so that we can be trusted to wield our wills without hurting ourselves or each other, and he tells me this is the number one thing that holds people back.

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And all this attraction and all this, okay, trying to get things to manifest, etc.

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That's all well and good, but if it's, if you want it to actually happen, you have to perfect your benevolence, and what you are willing or wishing for must be in concert with the will.

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That is holy, because if it's not, you are going to be in conflict with the designer of the venue itself, and so it's going to be detrimental to the awakening of the venue and therefore detrimental to you.

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So we are kind of in a rubber room here where the we pray things all the time, not knowing we're praying them as we say them.

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You make me sick.

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I am sick to my death with your behavior.

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I am so fed up.

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These are things we say to ourselves which have repercussions in reality, as we call it.

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Okay, jeff Thompson, I just watched your interview with him this morning.

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He's really on to the truth that we speak into being many things, even if we're not speaking them out loud, not realizing what we're doing, and that we need to be more mindful of the energy we're hurling out into space, because this is the purview of a conscious creator, of an awakened creator, of a lucid creator.

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So anyway, during this NDE, the first thing he did, when he said he had to show me, was he sent me to back down into the dream of the world, reliving a part of my life where I was 18 months old and mom was putting on me my first set of new shoes, and this was a big deal to mom.

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I lived this through mom's perspective and mine is an 18 month old laying on the floor screaming because I thought she tied me to the ground.

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I didn't understand why I had these stiff, nasty things on my little dainty feet, but wanted to feel the earth, not the shoes.

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So mom, at the same time, had gone through a lot of trouble to set aside the money to get these shoes for me to protect my feet.

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So I saw in this being the child and feeling through my mother and watching all of us at the same time.

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It was very interesting.

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You relive it and you experience it from everyone's point of view and watching it too.

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The shoes have been given to protect my feet and I, by the labels I had assigned to the experience, had made it the horrible situation that it was to me.

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The horrible situation I experienced was entirely of my own creation.

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Suddenly, with this realization, I'm back with Michael and the luster stass and I'm like did I get that right?

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Is that what you're trying to show me?

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That is indeed what he was trying to show me.

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So if I had seen the blessing at that time for that tribulation, I'd have been able to turn the grief to growth.

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I'd have been able to turn the poison to an elixir.

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You can still do it in retrospect, you can do it years down the line by reassigning yourself lucidly, consciously, the significance that you give to an event Once you find the blessing in it.

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You know, because it's automatically the thing that lifts the burden of the grief from your heart.

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It happens automatically.

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You have found the boon sufficient to justify that suffering.

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So another venue, another vignette happened, and it was of struggling with Alfred, of fighting Alfred and of knowing Michael's presence with me in that event, of feeling him, of leaving my body over and over again when this abuse happens.

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And it happened.

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And I learned from that.

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Not only that, I was accompanied and that I had this incredible resource, michael, his love, his ever present love and his redemptive sight.

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He could look upon things and show me the blessings outside of time.

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I did not have to wait as far down the time stream.

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If I would listen to him, I wouldn't have to do it as much.

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In retrospect it could happen as it happened.

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I could understand or I could.

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And this is what I advise everybody is what I learned from this preserve judgment, don't label it at all, wait and see.

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Wait and see how it rebounds.

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So the third back with Michael.

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I went into the luster's vas, asked him do I get this right?

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And I found the boon was you and that I learned that I was not my body.

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I learned, I began to learn I was not my body because whenever anyone would touch me my dad spanking me, alfred abusing me I would say to myself he cannot touch me, he can touch my body, he cannot sully me, he cannot even touch me, Right.

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So that is what I learned from that and that is a beautiful boon to realize you're not this warm.

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The next vignette my dad was wearing a switch out on my legs and the same thing happened again and again.

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I mean, it was not just one episode of dad hitting me with a switch, it was many.

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That I relived as a sort of this sort of event.

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This sort of event happened so many times, but I realized each time I just left my body when it was happening again.

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I am not my body.

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Okay, so I had found this escape, hatch Out, I'd go.

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So from these I learned that everything that happens to us is actually happening for us.

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People say why is there so much suffering?

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Well, your memory is not being wiped before you get here.

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There is no river life.

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I take that directly from Michael.

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There's no river of forgetfulness.

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The reason you don't remember is very simple.

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The human brain, when you're born, takes almost 30 years to mature and during that 30 years your brain, which is a mechanistic, chemically working thing, orients you to live in this venue.

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It orients you to believe you're a body, to believe you're your family, to believe your pets, to believe you're your house, your neighborhood, your friends, okay, all of the things that are important to the body's survival.

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But nobody wants you to forget.

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They want you to wake up, they want you to remember.

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That's why there's so much suffering.

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Every time you suffer, it's an opportunity to wake up.

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In fact it should be like a token to you saying wake up, wake up.

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You've lost your lucidity.

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You think you're something that can suffer loss and die.

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But there's something in this for you, because you're an eternal divine being who came here to awaken the whole world to the fact that they're dreaming.

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Now dying was exactly like awakening from a dispiriting dream.

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You know you wake up from a bad dream.

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You think, oh my God, I'm so glad I don't.

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My existence comes from a higher level and nothing in that dream can actually hurt me.

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That's exactly what it was like when I died.

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It was holy smoke.

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At this point I'm going.

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Nothing in the dream of the world could have ever hurt me at all.

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That is amazing, okay.

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And everything that hurt me hurt me because of the labels I assigned.

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Everything I suffered I suffered because I made it with my labels, the situation that it was for me.

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Other people were having a completely different experience.

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Shazam Mom was putting shoes on my feet because she loved me, okay.

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So at this point I'm laughing.

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I'm laughing because people do this to ourselves constantly.

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Michael and I are just roaring with laughter at the way we play this prank on ourselves.

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This is a prank.

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It's very funny from outside of the prank.

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When you get into your eternal perspective.

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You're going to go.

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Hey, that was hysterical.

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I can't believe I did that to myself, right?

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Because from there it's funny, but from within the venue not so funny.

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But it's supposed to wake you up.

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Okay Now, because I was going through all this stuff as a child, I had bad nightmares every night.

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I didn't want to go to sleep.

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Michael started coming into my nightmares and making me lose it in the dream.

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Why are you running?

00:27:04.278 --> 00:27:05.828
I'd be running from monsters.

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Why are you running?

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Because the monsters are going to get me.

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They're chasing me.

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And he would say no, they're not chasing you.

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They're coming out to greet you.

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You made those monsters, you summoned them into being.

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They're coming out.

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They're coming to you to show you that you're the power that created them.

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They're trying to show you where the power is.

00:27:26.153 --> 00:27:26.705
Now.

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This never really sunk into my awareness, into my being, until over time.

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Many times, like in the near-death experience, I became lucid, looking back on the world, saying it's just a dream.

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This is lucidity.

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I became aware of my own creative ability.

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That I had been doing unconsciously before, by labeling situations in such a way that they were painful to me, instead of not judging or labeling it in the way I chose to see it consciously.

00:27:59.435 --> 00:28:03.814
Jeff Thompson was saying he's in the space between the judgments.

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He is the space between the judgments.

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He isn't in it.

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He is that space and that's the next level you move to realizing.

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You are that consciousness itself in which all of this is unfolding.

00:28:22.058 --> 00:28:25.346
The way out is in and you're the portal.

00:28:29.545 --> 00:28:43.615
So we laughed and we laughed about what an incredible joke we're playing on ourselves because we're godlings, making ourselves miserable or making ourselves happy by the way we wield our wills to label situations.

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And then we wept.

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And we wept because it's a tragedy that people wield their godly estate unconsciously and make themselves miserable.

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This was the source of all of the suffering in the world.

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They could all be stopped if people just learn to become lucid in the dream of the world and consciously supervise their mind, instead of letting their mind impersonate them with a whole bunch of scary thoughts that get triggered in situations that remind you of some bad thing that happened before and letting those scary thoughts, full of energy and passion, because they're born of some sort of trauma run away with you in the present moment, the only way anything from your past gets into your future is through now, your present moment.

00:29:38.345 --> 00:29:40.612
So you have to choose to supervise your mind.

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And Michael, in my last really big revelation with him in 2007, said to me remember, I taught you to be lucid as a child in your nightmares.

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Remember, I taught you about lucidity when you died.

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Now I'm telling you, anytime you imagine yourself some suffering, sad, pained being.

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You have forgotten what you are.

00:30:10.030 --> 00:30:15.813
You have descended into identification with a character.

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You're playing in a temporal dream and when you leave here, you're going to remember you are not that being, you are this consciousness.

00:30:27.294 --> 00:30:31.969
You are consciousness, okay, itself, you are awareness.

00:30:31.969 --> 00:30:37.335
So now he says to me anything that upsets you.

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You need to remember it, you need to use it as the thing that makes you lucid.

00:30:42.614 --> 00:30:45.571
Aha, I'm in pain, emotional pain.

00:30:45.571 --> 00:30:47.329
What am I saying?

00:30:47.329 --> 00:30:52.997
What is my mind saying to myself that is generating this pain?

00:30:52.997 --> 00:30:57.354
Okay, because usually your mind is lying to you.

00:30:57.354 --> 00:31:08.809
Your mind is telling you some past situation that was dangerous, sad, hurtful, whatever injurious, is back, it's back, it's happening again, and it's usually not.

00:31:08.809 --> 00:31:26.855
You're having an irrational response to a present situation because of a past event that has been triggered and is now impersonating you, you, the consciousness, using the energy of your godly estate to create an experience you don't want.

00:31:26.855 --> 00:31:31.954
And that's the way it actually factually works.

00:31:31.954 --> 00:31:47.875
And once you discover that you're the one doing it to yourself, with the labels you apply, you become the space between in which all of this unfolds and cannot really hurt you.

00:31:47.875 --> 00:31:53.354
So with this, I said to him my God, this is also clear.

00:31:53.354 --> 00:31:55.490
It's also perfect and beautiful.

00:31:55.490 --> 00:31:58.973
The suffering wakes us to remember our true identity.

00:31:58.973 --> 00:32:05.727
We stop being programmed by our brain's maturation process to identify with all the stuff we are not.

00:32:07.785 --> 00:32:11.214
And, realizing this, I thought I have to go back.

00:32:11.214 --> 00:32:12.628
I have to go back, michael.

00:32:12.628 --> 00:32:13.412
How do I go back?

00:32:13.412 --> 00:32:15.973
I have to tell everybody how do I go back.

00:32:15.973 --> 00:32:18.053
And he said well, you can go back anywhere you want.

00:32:18.053 --> 00:32:21.915
Now, this took me years to realize how critical what he said next was.

00:32:21.915 --> 00:32:23.811
He said you can go back any place you want.

00:32:23.811 --> 00:32:33.736
You can go back into the moment before the accident occurred and avoid the accident altogether and live your time stream having never had this accident.

00:32:33.736 --> 00:32:45.737
But if you go back that way, you will not recall what I just showed you and you only want to go back to tell everybody this, so that they too can be free.

00:32:46.424 --> 00:33:01.837
So in order to go back and keep these memories as part of that time stream, you must go back through the last moment and re-inhabit the damaged body as it is in that time stream.

00:33:01.837 --> 00:33:03.789
That way you will keep the memories.

00:33:03.789 --> 00:33:05.569
So I said well, how do I do it?

00:33:05.569 --> 00:33:09.275
He said remember the last moment you were in your body, and that was easy.

00:33:09.275 --> 00:33:17.173
It was the rump coming up in the air and him saying he is kicking, and then summon your will to return.

00:33:17.173 --> 00:33:21.615
Okay, this is what he said I came here to do to summon my will.

00:33:21.615 --> 00:33:23.130
And he meant the will that is holy.

00:33:23.130 --> 00:33:37.439
And the will that is holy is the manifestation of the golden timeline where the venue itself and every point of consciousness within it wakens to being conscious, to being lucid.

00:33:37.439 --> 00:33:42.055
All right, so I did exactly what he directed.

00:33:42.055 --> 00:33:43.871
I remembered the last moment.

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I willed passionately to go back, because I was full of love for everybody in the venue, but especially for the thousands of people that I saw were, like me, coming into the venue and having NDE's to give it a reorientation, to refresh their memory of who and what we all really are, so that they could bring that memory back and jostle everybody else and say, hey, wake up, wake up, we're doing this to ourselves and we're doing it together, okay, and we can wake up together.

00:34:15.329 --> 00:34:26.293
So, bam, I was back in the dream of the world, felt like the rushing of the wind, pardon me and there I was, back in my body trying to make it stand up.

00:34:26.293 --> 00:34:31.054
That's my NDE.

00:34:31.905 --> 00:34:36.454
The messages of that NDE I'm 65 now have matured over time.

00:34:36.454 --> 00:34:41.871
It's like he planted, like he did first of all.

00:34:41.871 --> 00:34:43.675
It's like he took my old belief system.

00:34:43.675 --> 00:34:46.391
Your belief system limits your perceptions.

00:34:46.391 --> 00:34:53.036
Your belief system limits your ability to grow in many ways, okay.

00:34:53.036 --> 00:34:59.637
And what he did was shatter the edges of my empiricist mind Okay.

00:34:59.637 --> 00:35:10.753
He took it apart so that he could rearrange the connections between the dots of my own reckonings, okay, and give me a broader, more expansive view.

00:35:10.753 --> 00:35:27.159
Over time and over the years, he's prepared my mind to be able to accept larger and larger chunks of understanding of the way this works and what the purpose of my still being here is.

00:35:27.664 --> 00:35:34.152
Because after you've had experiences like that, the world's pretty mundane and you keep saying, okay, when am I going to do the thing I came back here to do?

00:35:34.152 --> 00:35:35.927
Because I'm ready to get out.

00:35:35.927 --> 00:35:37.371
When you're ready to let me out?

00:35:37.371 --> 00:35:39.746
Okay, I still.

00:35:39.746 --> 00:35:40.208
I walk.

00:35:40.208 --> 00:35:42.594
I walk outside in electrical storms.

00:35:42.594 --> 00:35:43.577
Now I'm not scared anymore.

00:35:43.577 --> 00:35:49.873
If he wants me, he can have me and I don't think he wants to take me out because, as he says, you're lucid now.

00:35:49.873 --> 00:35:52.992
Only a lucid dreamer can change the dream.

00:35:52.992 --> 00:35:54.990
We want you to stay in the dream.

00:35:55.385 --> 00:35:57.733
I'm excited to announce I have a great new resource.

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It's called Gems Four Steps to Move from Grief to Joy.

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And what it is.

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It's four things that I've found that I do on a daily basis to help me to navigate my grief, and I'm offering it to you free of charge.

00:36:11.010 --> 00:36:11.974
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00:36:11.974 --> 00:36:16.692
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00:36:16.692 --> 00:36:24.003
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Okay, we've prepared you all this time.

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Now we need you to stay in the dream.

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So that's kind of where I am now, but I will say a lot on the thing that has most matured.

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My settlement in awareness of what I am was last year I took myself off Lexapro, which is an SSRI under doctor supervision.

00:36:52.853 --> 00:37:19.061
Okay, the Lexapro was not playing pretty with my other medications and it nearly killed me a few times and I with drug interactions, and I was in hell figuratively speaking, but very real hell because the suicidal impulse was chronic.

00:37:19.061 --> 00:37:21.728
I'm not talking about ideation, I'm talking about impulse.

00:37:21.728 --> 00:37:40.148
I took myself almost completely off my pain medication at the same time because the pain medication was mixing with the Lexaprotocos serotonin syndrome, which is what nearly killed me over and over again, until finally we died.

00:37:40.148 --> 00:37:42.331
I figured if Michael told me what it was.

00:37:42.331 --> 00:37:47.947
I looked it up, I called the doctor and, sure enough, they said yeah, that's what's been all this time, isn't that interesting?

00:37:49.947 --> 00:37:54.597
Anyway, the nerve endings throughout your body scream.

00:37:54.597 --> 00:37:56.030
You feel like you've got the flu.

00:37:56.030 --> 00:37:59.210
Everything hurts way worse than it should.

00:37:59.210 --> 00:38:02.710
Constant suicidal impulse.

00:38:02.710 --> 00:38:16.471
It feels like it felt to me, like I was being stabbed all over with tiny little stainless steel cocktail knives, the swords you know the little cocktail swords Okay, that's what it felt like All over my muscles.

00:38:16.471 --> 00:38:42.259
So not only was I sick, it felt like the flu and in a lot of physical pain unless nerve pain, the stabbing sword feeling but the suicidal impulse was constant, constant, just like your brain says roll over in bed because you're uncomfortable, or eat, even before your stomach growls.

00:38:42.259 --> 00:38:43.452
That's what the brain saying eat.

00:38:43.452 --> 00:38:49.532
My brain was saying make it stop, kill the body, make it stop, kill the body.

00:38:49.532 --> 00:38:52.351
It was that physically intolerable.

00:38:52.351 --> 00:38:55.146
And so what?

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Every worse yet every bad psychological bundle of frightened, angry self-talk I had ever constructed anywhere in my mind space came alive and started playing Constant dread.

00:39:13.565 --> 00:39:16.094
Every second, I believed I was going to drop dead.

00:39:16.094 --> 00:39:18.472
I'm just going to drop dead if I don't kill myself.

00:39:18.472 --> 00:39:19.186
Right, it was just.

00:39:19.186 --> 00:39:34.302
It was 11 months of this and not sleeping for days on end, and the only way I could escape this was I would go in and lay down, and I would.

00:39:38.369 --> 00:39:39.733
I created a metaphor.

00:39:39.733 --> 00:39:58.286
There was a place I had been in my life, a Notatorium locker room where I learned to scuba dive, where I had felt Michael intensely present in my late 20s, and every time I went in there, I had this really strong feeling of presence, and so I had met Michael in dreams when I started.

00:39:58.286 --> 00:40:05.452
Shortly after I started writing, he came to me in dreams in the context of that locker room is where it was sighted.

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And so, in order to be closer to him, I would go into this locker room metaphor.

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I would visualize it really intensely.

00:40:14.847 --> 00:40:27.721
Michael calls this imagine-festing, because you're hearing it, you're seeing it, you're smelling the chlorine from the pool above, you hear the pumps chanting, the pool pumps chanting distantly.

00:40:27.721 --> 00:40:34.018
You know the water's dripping in the showers, the air is very moist.

00:40:34.018 --> 00:40:37.230
And so there's this haziness you imagine-fest it.

00:40:37.451 --> 00:41:03.818
And then I decided, at the top of the stairs where the Notatorium used to be, I was going to create another world, a knockoff of this one that was a little bit better weather-wise, and I would go up the stairs, imagine-festing the light streaming in around the doors, throw the doors open, walk out onto this beautiful sandy beach that I imagine-fested many times, very, very vividly.

00:41:04.425 --> 00:41:07.918
Okay, because the mind is like a teething puppy.

00:41:07.918 --> 00:41:10.005
It needs something to chew on.

00:41:10.005 --> 00:41:25.467
Alright, so when the mind is rebelling so badly that it just won't quit, you can forcibly put it onto something precious and beautiful instead, and so you put yourself into that.

00:41:25.467 --> 00:41:45.938
So I learned to do this over and over again, and now I've just learned to supervise my mind, so much so that I have, as I mentioned, I'm not in the space between the judgments, I am the space in which it all unfolds.

00:41:45.938 --> 00:41:56.411
I am unbothered by most things anymore, and if I am bothered, I stop and I say what silly story am I telling myself?

00:41:56.411 --> 00:42:03.972
Okay, because none of this can touch me unless I give it power to touch me.

00:42:03.972 --> 00:42:15.795
All of your frightening pain thoughts get all of their power to affect your experience from you.

00:42:15.795 --> 00:42:24.737
And yet all of us believe we are victims of our emotions, and the emotions are the result of your self-talk.

00:42:24.737 --> 00:42:28.652
Whatever you're feeling, it's something you're saying to yourself.

00:42:29.936 --> 00:42:37.525
So this is where I am now I have to say that the boon I got from Lexapro withdrawals was, I am like.

00:42:37.525 --> 00:42:46.900
First I went to the observer mode observe the mind, observe it creating your experience, observe it creating the emotions.

00:42:46.900 --> 00:42:57.394
But after a while the observer sufficiently fed the chooser and the chooser began to direct the mind and choose the narrative it preferred.

00:42:57.394 --> 00:43:09.739
So this is where I am now, and if you can get yourself into chooser mode, if you can just be observer, you'll eventually awaken the chooser, the chooser.

00:43:10.001 --> 00:43:23.210
Once you've observed long enough you sabotaging your own peace and happiness, once you observe your mind attacking your peace and happiness, you realize it can't attack your peace and happiness if it were you.

00:43:23.210 --> 00:43:26.440
It's not you, it's your tool.

00:43:26.440 --> 00:43:29.971
This kind of snaps you into chooser mode.

00:43:29.971 --> 00:43:36.996
That realization, it's like an aha, I found the switch that activates this the way I want it to work.

00:43:36.996 --> 00:43:38.583
And you're the switch.

00:43:38.583 --> 00:43:44.054
It's your will, it's your attention, it's where you put your focus.

00:43:44.054 --> 00:44:23.570
Last metaphor if your mind is like a dark space, and over in this corner of the room you've got all your hopes and desires and fondest memories, and over in this corner of the room you've got all your fears, your losses, your disappointments, but you are the one with the flashlight and that flashlight is your attention Supervisor might cast the light of your attention where you want things to grow, because you're the light that makes them grow.

00:44:23.570 --> 00:44:27.617
So there we are.

00:44:28.266 --> 00:44:28.728
Absolutely.

00:44:28.728 --> 00:44:29.590
Thank you so much.

00:44:29.590 --> 00:44:30.735
Thank you so much.

00:44:30.735 --> 00:44:33.788
There is so much I want to talk to you about.

00:44:33.788 --> 00:44:36.418
First of all, I want to.

00:44:36.418 --> 00:44:43.702
There's a word that you used earlier and I've heard you use it in other interviews and it confused me at first, so I'm going to colorify it for people that are listening.

00:44:43.702 --> 00:44:50.309
That might be because you use the word she or chi and you talked to chi, so tell people what chi is.

00:44:50.309 --> 00:44:52.333
I know now, but I didn't know when I first heard it.

00:44:53.425 --> 00:45:06.925
Okay, as a scientist, it's difficult for me to use words in precisely so.

00:45:06.925 --> 00:45:13.117
I have to say, as a scientist, I cannot tell you what chi is.

00:45:13.117 --> 00:45:18.309
As a mystic, I can tell you chi is love.

00:45:18.309 --> 00:45:25.789
Okay, there is nothing here but God, nothing but God.

00:45:25.789 --> 00:45:29.356
Everything here is made of God, by God, from God.

00:45:29.356 --> 00:45:32.487
Okay, there is no evil.

00:45:32.487 --> 00:45:50.311
It's just different players in this prank provoking you, provoking us all, shaking us up, unconscious that they're being used by higher power to do that job.

00:45:50.311 --> 00:45:52.818
Everybody's just doing their job.

00:45:52.818 --> 00:45:55.393
If there's a devil, he's just doing his job.

00:45:55.393 --> 00:46:00.168
Okay, his job is to test you, to push you.

00:46:00.168 --> 00:46:02.873
If there's a devil, it's probably you.

00:46:04.476 --> 00:46:10.798
Okay, chi is experienced by me.

00:46:10.798 --> 00:46:15.773
I can be precisely correct about that and sure that I'm saying something precisely correct.

00:46:15.773 --> 00:46:20.197
Chi is experienced by me in a variety of ways.

00:46:20.197 --> 00:46:27.018
It feels like light dazzling all over my body or angels dancing on your skin.

00:46:27.018 --> 00:46:29.005
It feels euphoric.

00:46:29.005 --> 00:46:31.351
It feels like love.

00:46:31.351 --> 00:46:38.052
It feels like a love that has nothing to do with the love that we call love here.

00:46:38.052 --> 00:46:40.079
It is much more encompassing.

00:46:40.099 --> 00:46:48.005
If there were a word for what it closely resembles, I would say it's compassion, that sort of love.

00:46:48.005 --> 00:46:55.005
It is a love that includes everybody and everything, even your worst enemy.

00:46:55.005 --> 00:46:56.086
Do you know?

00:46:56.086 --> 00:47:03.452
Who I really look forward to celebrating with in the Eternal is Alfred the abuser.

00:47:03.452 --> 00:47:33.536
Okay, because we're going to laugh at how we played this game with one another and he, loving me, volunteered to be hated by me until the time I was able to forgive him in order to give me an experience of Michael at such a young age, to push me so desperately and deeply that I found Michael in my own consciousness that he was eternally available.

00:47:33.536 --> 00:47:42.733
This is like somebody offering to be hated by you because they're going to do something to you that's for your own good, but you're going to really hate it while it's happening.

00:47:42.733 --> 00:47:47.836
Okay, so I look forward to celebrating with Alfred and having a good laugh.

00:47:50.250 --> 00:47:51.893
Okay, that's a very deep concept.

00:47:51.893 --> 00:47:53.818
I know people are going to have to chew on.

00:47:55.168 --> 00:47:56.090
Don't wrestle with that.

00:47:56.331 --> 00:47:57.876
Yeah, people will wrestle with that.

00:47:57.876 --> 00:48:07.556
And as I've heard you speak before, and even as I heard you this time in telling your story, your love for your father just comes through like incredibly.

00:48:07.556 --> 00:48:14.067
And you say that he beat you every day from the time you were three to the age of 11.

00:48:14.067 --> 00:48:17.172
And then every day he would apologize for.

00:48:17.172 --> 00:48:25.626
How did you forgive him at the time was a later when you forgave him, because it sounds like he's right there at the time.

00:48:26.590 --> 00:48:39.650
Every time because I could feel his pain and there was no relief from me, for me, from his, from my suffering, until he was free to it's the same thing with Alfred.

00:48:39.650 --> 00:48:49.306
For many years I endeavored to totally be free of any signs of any of the damage he did to me, to take away his effects, to nullify his error.

00:48:49.306 --> 00:48:51.550
Because I wanted him to be free.

00:48:51.550 --> 00:49:00.617
I didn't want to be tied to that electromagnetic frequency of suffering.

00:49:00.617 --> 00:49:08.422
I wanted instead to redeem it, to find the elixir in the poison, to find the pearl hidden in the muck.

00:49:08.422 --> 00:49:13.153
If I could find the pearl hidden in the muck, I could redeem anything.

00:49:13.153 --> 00:49:14.797
And we're the redeemer.

00:49:14.797 --> 00:49:19.820
We choose to condemn or we choose to free.

00:49:19.820 --> 00:49:20.563
It's not really.

00:49:20.583 --> 00:49:22.309
Forgiveness is freeing.

00:49:22.309 --> 00:49:26.965
You're freeing yourself from the burden of that negative energy.

00:49:26.965 --> 00:49:38.018
You're freeing the other person, because how can you be happy in heaven knowing that person is excluded in suffering in their own created hell?

00:49:38.018 --> 00:49:39.643
How can?

00:49:39.643 --> 00:49:41.530
Compassion won't let you do it.

00:49:41.530 --> 00:49:51.262
The love that comes to you from that perspective demands you find a way to free the one who freed you through making you suffer.

00:49:51.262 --> 00:49:55.954
They made you suffer and you became free because of that suffering.

00:49:55.954 --> 00:49:59.920
You disidentified from anything that could suffer and you want to give it to them.

00:49:59.920 --> 00:50:05.038
It's the natural response to say well, he's dead now, so how can I do it?

00:50:05.038 --> 00:50:16.233
I will destroy any sign of damage in me and totally transform what he did out of being misguided and suffering himself.

00:50:16.233 --> 00:50:28.646
No doubt I will transform it to something beautiful to bring back to my maker to say this is what I made with a tragedy you gave me.

00:50:30.869 --> 00:50:31.409
I did this.

00:50:31.409 --> 00:50:34.393
Okay, this is my magic.

00:50:36.536 --> 00:50:37.838
Yeah, that's beautiful, thank you.

00:50:37.838 --> 00:50:46.402
And you use the word venue and you talk about life being kind of like a dream, I think of the Matrix.

00:50:46.402 --> 00:50:49.617
I think the Matrix was a fantastic movie in so many levels.

00:50:49.617 --> 00:50:55.007
So what is your interpretation of the world?

00:50:55.007 --> 00:51:01.838
Because I think I also heard you say there's no world out there at some point, and I have heard this concept over and over again.

00:51:01.838 --> 00:51:11.155
I've been reading Tom Campbell lately and I just read Biosintra and autism and I'm reading all these people that are saying that there's no world out there.

00:51:11.155 --> 00:51:12.458
So what do you mean when you say that?

00:51:14.764 --> 00:51:16.835
Now, mind you, michael started telling me this.

00:51:16.835 --> 00:51:27.331
The other thing that Michael did was he created a bit by blowing apart my belief structure at the edges so he could integrate new ideas in chronically.

00:51:27.331 --> 00:51:43.083
He also sort of opened a hole in my mind, a conduit between us where we could meet and I could understand things, hear things from him, even that didn't yet make sense, and one of them was about four or five years ago.

00:51:43.083 --> 00:51:44.811
He started saying there's no world out there.

00:51:44.811 --> 00:51:48.021
Everything will start to make sense to you once you get to orientation.

00:51:48.021 --> 00:51:49.465
You're not oriented.

00:51:49.465 --> 00:51:54.340
The orientation is this there's no world out there because there is no out.

00:51:54.340 --> 00:51:57.626
There is no out.

00:51:57.626 --> 00:52:04.764
Consciousness exists, not in a spacious way.

00:52:04.764 --> 00:52:10.916
Everything is happening inside consciousness, so there's no world.

00:52:10.916 --> 00:52:14.342
There's no out, so there's no world out there.

00:52:14.342 --> 00:52:28.282
Everything is happening in consciousness, but we have these meat suits that we put on in order to interact in this venue and to trick us into thinking.

00:52:28.282 --> 00:52:32.996
We are the meat suit, because it can suffer loss and die and it can hurt.

00:52:32.996 --> 00:52:45.184
So the objective is to reorient us with our suffering, and that orientation is you're actually creating your experience.

00:52:45.184 --> 00:52:50.376
It's happening at the level of consciousness itself.

00:52:50.376 --> 00:53:10.201
It's not happening to you, trust upon you in some outwardly real projected venue that is all being filtered, projected through your eyes and your expectations, and this apparatus to give you an experience of spatial existence.

00:53:10.201 --> 00:53:12.105
It is assimilated.

00:53:13.005 --> 00:53:17.920
He tells me, time can exist without space.

00:53:17.920 --> 00:53:21.485
Now, these are images he's been working with me on for a couple of years.

00:53:21.485 --> 00:53:24.295
Time is change.

00:53:24.295 --> 00:53:28.141
Without change there is no time.

00:53:28.141 --> 00:53:37.041
So as soon as you introduce a thought, you have introduced change and time has begun.

00:53:37.041 --> 00:53:55.262
I kind of think the first thought was a thought of spatiality, if you realize that everything that happens in your life, the last moment contains everything that happened before.

00:53:55.262 --> 00:54:01.317
Every parameter is in the last moment, like nested little Russian dolls.

00:54:01.317 --> 00:54:08.548
The last moment implies every antecedent condition of the whole thing.

00:54:08.548 --> 00:54:15.271
So if you take in the lustrous, vast, everything exists simultaneously possible.

00:54:15.271 --> 00:54:35.601
Some things are more easily possible than others, more likely than others, but all things are possible and exist as hypothetical realities, hypothetical realities that you then experience as if you would be reading a book, watching a movie.

00:54:36.242 --> 00:54:43.000
You go into that moment containing every antecedent moment, every antecedent condition.

00:54:43.000 --> 00:54:50.739
You go into that moment and a spatial environment expands around you.

00:54:50.739 --> 00:54:52.681
It's all hypothetical.

00:54:52.681 --> 00:55:00.465
That's why you can go into the lustrous vast and go into a life review and relive a vignette.

00:55:00.465 --> 00:55:05.541
That's why he said to me you can go back at any moment you want and live it differently.

00:55:05.541 --> 00:55:31.547
You can even avoid the accident, but you won't remember what I just showed you and you'll have to wake up again with some other incident because you won't be able to carry the awakefulness as the knowledge that you are, the conscious knowledge that you have previously been unconsciously constructing your own reality and doing so through your fears instead of through your love and your joy and what you aspire to.

00:55:32.635 --> 00:55:36.664
Okay, so that's what I mean by there is no world out there.

00:55:36.664 --> 00:55:38.228
There is no out.

00:55:38.228 --> 00:55:59.617
God created all of this by recombining various trait packages to create dreams of us individual little beings your trait package, my trait package, my history, your history, what we've gone through to bring us to this moment.

00:55:59.617 --> 00:56:09.177
Okay, and we, as gods, are capable, inside our own consciousnesses, to create worlds.

00:56:09.177 --> 00:56:10.019
And I'm a writer.

00:56:10.019 --> 00:56:11.706
I create worlds and characters.

00:56:12.086 --> 00:56:20.992
Okay, I've only come recently to realize that they have their own reality and mind space is contiguous.

00:56:20.992 --> 00:56:23.396
There are no separations.

00:56:23.396 --> 00:56:35.188
You can get into the locker room metaphor Anybody can get in there, alright, because mind space is contiguous, there are no separations.

00:56:35.188 --> 00:56:36.653
But we explode.

00:56:36.653 --> 00:56:41.690
Everybody's looking for the added dimensions that we can't see.

00:56:41.690 --> 00:56:42.793
There's all these dimensions.

00:56:42.793 --> 00:56:44.838
Physicists say well, they're looking in the wrong place.

00:56:44.838 --> 00:56:48.286
They're inside our consciousness.

00:56:48.286 --> 00:57:01.197
The dimensions explode inwardly as God expands through each of us, creating more and more venues of interaction, of experience.

00:57:01.197 --> 00:57:06.434
So I know that's quite a rambling answer and it's a lot of stuff.

00:57:06.434 --> 00:57:07.456
It's really dense.

00:57:07.456 --> 00:57:11.327
I hope that people can pick it up somewhere and it lead them someplace fruitful.

00:57:12.456 --> 00:57:18.164
Yeah, there is a lot and again, it's a concept that I keep coming across and I need to hear different ways from different people.

00:57:18.164 --> 00:57:21.844
So I want to say to people if you're struggling to understand this, you're normal.

00:57:21.844 --> 00:57:32.684
It's like when you first started hearing about quantum physics, you know, someone said if you think you understand quantum physics, you don't understand quantum physics, the idea that time and space are relative.

00:57:32.684 --> 00:57:34.916
You know, it's a concept that we.

00:57:34.916 --> 00:57:37.005
It goes against what our senses tell us.

00:57:37.005 --> 00:57:39.375
It goes against what our meat suit is telling us.

00:57:39.375 --> 00:57:50.463
That people say well, like my experience is, there is time and there is space, but so we have to just kind of experience, experience.

00:57:51.123 --> 00:57:59.666
Experience changes from moment to moment, from person to person, from label to label, so why would we count it to be so important?

00:57:59.666 --> 00:58:04.702
It's a direct experience, is the measure of reality.

00:58:05.043 --> 00:58:19.565
Oh, poppycock, yeah, okay, yeah, I have to do is look at a few optical illusions to understand that our experiences and what's necessarily true, and understand the way, the way that our brains work and what our brains filter out.

00:58:19.565 --> 00:58:23.543
You know, perception is not what we perceive it to be.

00:58:23.543 --> 00:58:25.568
It's it's it's it's subjective.

00:58:25.568 --> 00:58:32.161
We all have different experiences, you know, even if we're in the same place, having the same event happen around us.

00:58:32.161 --> 00:58:39.021
So these concepts actually go back to what we actually understood before the modern era.

00:58:39.021 --> 00:58:50.615
I mean, really, it's only about 100, 200 years ago that we really got lost with with understanding the way the universe works, and I believe that the things that Michael is showing you is what the, the mystics, have told us for for thousands of years.

00:58:51.458 --> 00:58:53.342
Yes, I am obviously a mystic.

00:58:53.342 --> 00:58:54.123
I mean, I used to.

00:58:54.123 --> 00:59:02.518
I'm a little kid who used to go climb up into the trees in order to commune with God and get she rushes through my body and and sing to the sky.

00:59:02.518 --> 00:59:08.885
I didn't realize I was a mystic for many years, except for well, it took until I was about 11, 12 years old.

00:59:08.885 --> 00:59:09.728
I realized.

00:59:09.728 --> 00:59:19.862
Every time I tried to talk to other people about this subtle experience that I was having, that was so compelling, they were like they had no clue what I was on about.

00:59:19.862 --> 00:59:20.385
And so I.

00:59:20.385 --> 00:59:25.621
For many years I just stopped talking about Michael and stop stop.

00:59:25.621 --> 00:59:31.300
Particularly after the near death experience when I started trying to tell people right away.

00:59:31.300 --> 00:59:36.284
When I got back, like right away, I started telling my family because I wanted to wake all of them up right away.

00:59:36.284 --> 00:59:41.896
You know, they were all like it's just brain damage, you'll be all right, it'll go away, you'll recover.

00:59:41.896 --> 00:59:43.119
That was their reaction.

00:59:45.003 --> 00:59:55.733
I want to talk about the word mystic though, because I'm a scientist also, I'm a chemical engineer and I think the word mystic, it makes us think okay, these are, these are people that are studying things that aren't real.

00:59:55.733 --> 00:59:59.608
They're not the same, but I think that is actually the ultimate reality.

00:59:59.608 --> 01:00:03.880
So, like I just appreciate, I just read Tom Campbell's book theory of everything.

01:00:03.880 --> 01:00:10.065
The guy is, he's a physicist, but he also studied at the Monroe Institute, has had all these out of body experiences.

01:00:10.065 --> 01:00:17.416
So we call it mysticism because our instruments can't measure it, but I believe it's the actual, ultimate reality.

01:00:17.416 --> 01:00:37.119
So when we do turn within and we do start to understand these concepts, it's not woo, woo, it's not wishful thinking, it is actually why we are here and it and it makes sense, and I'm glad to see people like you who are putting such thoughtful words behind it and who are explaining it that way.

01:00:37.179 --> 01:00:41.338
And Bernard R Cashup is a guy that I've read, like everything he's ever written.

01:00:41.338 --> 01:00:52.340
He's a, he's a computer scientist and a PhD in philosophy and he writes about, he brings the science and the philosophy together, which is where I think, where the ultimate truth comes.

01:00:52.340 --> 01:00:58.597
So what you're saying to me makes, makes perfect sense, and I want to.

01:00:58.597 --> 01:01:07.608
I do want to talk about the idea of manifestation also, because it's one of those things is kind of like reincarnation.

01:01:07.608 --> 01:01:11.010
I believe it's real, but it's not the way most people think it is.

01:01:11.010 --> 01:01:18.784
Because we hear manifestation, we think okay, that means if I just believe hard enough, I can be a millionaire, I'll never get sick and I can drive a nice car.

01:01:18.784 --> 01:01:27.115
But I hear you talking about manifestation more of like the well, capital W and being in that well.

01:01:27.115 --> 01:01:28.380
So could you explain that a little bit more?

01:01:30.635 --> 01:01:39.327
Okay, the ultimate thing that we all want to be is happy.

01:01:39.327 --> 01:01:46.844
We are all praying to be happy, consciously and unconsciously.

01:01:46.844 --> 01:02:10.585
All the time we at the same time shoot all our prayers in the foot by negating them with the words we choose to utter those prayers or with which words that we choose that counteract those prayers.

01:02:10.585 --> 01:02:23.344
I'm having a hard time, a little seizure.

01:02:23.344 --> 01:02:31.989
I have those from the brain damage, but I'm blessedly.

01:02:31.989 --> 01:02:32.771
Really it's not bad.

01:02:34.503 --> 01:02:34.945
Thank you, Ty.

01:02:35.880 --> 01:02:44.987
I just lose my train of thought for a moment and I feel a little unwell and I flush, but that's why I'm disabled.

01:02:44.987 --> 01:02:50.168
Okay, we all want to be happy.

01:02:50.168 --> 01:02:58.530
We're always praying to be happy, but then we're saying things to ourselves that counteract our own will.

01:02:58.530 --> 01:03:04.282
We're not even paying attention to the words we're uttering In 2008,.

01:03:04.322 --> 01:03:08.851
Michael said to me, and this was one of the few times that he came very close to using words.

01:03:08.851 --> 01:03:22.829
He said if you want your words to have power, you must first cull from your soul, first speech and your thoughts, all the words you would not will to empower.

01:03:22.829 --> 01:03:30.349
The venue is designed to protect you from your rash utterances.

01:03:30.349 --> 01:03:35.003
We're children of God, we are Godlings.

01:03:35.003 --> 01:03:38.166
We have massive power.

01:03:38.166 --> 01:03:42.048
Have you ever watched a baby elephant learn to use its trunk?

01:03:42.048 --> 01:03:45.527
Okay, it's all over the place.

01:03:45.527 --> 01:03:49.528
They smack themselves in the eyes and ears trying to use the thing.

01:03:49.528 --> 01:03:51.907
Same thing with our godly estate.

01:03:51.907 --> 01:03:54.588
Same thing with our desire.

01:03:54.588 --> 01:04:08.128
Our passion summons to us the safest version of what we are emotionally, spiritually prepared to have, the safest version that will do us the least harm.

01:04:08.128 --> 01:04:28.021
And as long as we are rashly uttering things and doing it unconsciously, the venue is not going to change the physics at a quantum level to deliver to you anything that is dangerous to you or someone else I like.

01:04:28.021 --> 01:04:37.949
If I learn how to wield the will in this venue and do things that other people can't do, it's like handing the neighborhood bully.

01:04:37.949 --> 01:04:40.849
Do you hand him a plastic baseball bat?

01:04:40.849 --> 01:04:42.867
He's going to smack the other kids with it.

01:04:42.867 --> 01:04:46.188
No, the venue is going to hand you a Nerf bat.

01:04:46.188 --> 01:04:49.847
A Nerf bat won't hurt anybody.

01:04:49.847 --> 01:05:02.268
As a metaphor, the more perfected your benevolence, the more you're living in your compassion, the more the venue, the more you're not uttering words rashly.

01:05:02.268 --> 01:05:09.775
You're being conscious about what you will and what you say and what you try to manifest with your labels.

01:05:09.775 --> 01:05:17.766
The more you're doing that consciously, the more the venue, the power, comes to you because it's safe, you're not going to hurt anybody with it.

01:05:18.800 --> 01:05:24.733
I start noticing I have literally materialized to things not before my very eyes.

01:05:24.733 --> 01:05:25.543
I don't know why.

01:05:25.543 --> 01:05:40.291
I'm not allowed to see it happen, but I have said I want this thing and I need this thing and I went away to look for it elsewhere and I was very passionate about it because it's a very important situation at the time to me, emotionally very important.

01:05:40.291 --> 01:05:54.226
I walked away to go look for the things I needed elsewhere, searched all the places it should be in the house, came back out to where I was working outside and there were the supplies I needed next to my tools.

01:05:54.226 --> 01:05:58.206
They had not been there.

01:05:58.206 --> 01:06:00.744
They had not been there.

01:06:00.744 --> 01:06:06.764
In fact, there was a gentleman working there with me and I asked him read where did these nails come from.

01:06:06.764 --> 01:06:13.621
I went inside and searched all the vessels where I keep nails and bolts and nuts and something.

01:06:13.621 --> 01:06:16.103
These weren't here.

01:06:16.103 --> 01:06:27.289
They're laying right here next to my hammer, exactly four nails that I need to finish this job so that I can put my peacocks that are coming into that coop.

01:06:27.289 --> 01:06:30.403
He was like I haven't been down off the roof.

01:06:30.403 --> 01:06:32.047
I'm working up here.

01:06:32.047 --> 01:06:32.869
I haven't been down.

01:06:32.869 --> 01:06:34.193
I don't know what happened.

01:06:34.193 --> 01:06:35.842
I mean, this happened more than once.

01:06:35.842 --> 01:06:38.489
It's happened quite a few times.

01:06:38.489 --> 01:06:45.369
I think the reason it happens and I find things.

01:06:47.079 --> 01:06:48.784
Not long ago I went to my sister's house.

01:06:48.784 --> 01:06:50.509
She came to the door she was weeping.

01:06:50.509 --> 01:06:52.581
I was like what's the matter, chrissy?

01:06:52.581 --> 01:06:58.110
And she was like I've lost mom's ring, the dome ring with the diamonds that I gave her.

01:06:58.110 --> 01:06:58.992
I've lost it.

01:06:58.992 --> 01:06:59.853
I can't find it.

01:07:00.659 --> 01:07:07.208
I've been looking all day and I said, okay, well, take me inside where you last saw it, take me where you think it should be.

01:07:07.208 --> 01:07:09.900
She said well, I've searched it.

01:07:09.900 --> 01:07:13.811
She takes me to her bedroom and she'll have searched all over every place.

01:07:13.811 --> 01:07:15.847
She's standing right there next to her bed.

01:07:15.847 --> 01:07:20.530
I'm standing in the doorway and I say inwardly to Michael Michael, please show me the ring.

01:07:20.530 --> 01:07:27.610
My head literally turns of its own accord and my eyes land on the ring.

01:07:27.610 --> 01:07:36.949
It's like three feet from her, where she's standing in that very moment laying in the middle of the pillow, where she lays her head on that bed.

01:07:36.949 --> 01:07:47.146
I'm like 14 feet away and Michael goes with my head and lands right on that ring and then she's standing there and she can't see it.

01:07:47.559 --> 01:07:48.965
Did I materialize that ring?

01:07:48.965 --> 01:07:51.525
Did Michael materialize that ring?

01:07:51.525 --> 01:07:56.329
I mean, did she just suddenly become able to see it?

01:07:56.329 --> 01:08:06.882
I don't know how these things happen, but I can tell you I have seen things that I knew where they were supposed to be, disappear from where they were supposed to be, and I have said to Michael please give it back.

01:08:06.882 --> 01:08:10.168
And I looked again and there it was.

01:08:10.168 --> 01:08:20.889
He's given me an experience over and over again that this venue is not what it appears to be and things can come and go from it.

01:08:20.889 --> 01:08:23.087
I had a dog.

01:08:23.087 --> 01:08:26.121
I lost her four days, four days.

01:08:26.121 --> 01:08:27.064
I looked for this dog.

01:08:27.064 --> 01:08:31.363
In June I found her four days.

01:08:31.363 --> 01:08:33.588
She had been locked in my van.

01:08:33.588 --> 01:08:37.426
In June oh wow, in Florida.

01:08:38.108 --> 01:08:38.408
Wow.

01:08:39.100 --> 01:08:40.104
And she was fine.

01:08:40.104 --> 01:08:48.042
Wow, okay, I found her after days of looking for her and hearing her barking and thinking I was losing my mind.

01:08:48.042 --> 01:08:50.886
I came from because I'm hearing her.

01:08:50.886 --> 01:09:02.627
I'm thinking I'm so tortured by what's happened to Gracie right, and I came in to undress, having been 30 miles away leaving flyers with the people at the agricultural stations et cetera.

01:09:02.627 --> 01:09:08.131
I came in from that and I'm undressing and I think I hear Gracie barking again.

01:09:08.131 --> 01:09:09.063
It's raining.

01:09:09.063 --> 01:09:15.609
Her son, atman, is in the back porch because it's raining.

01:09:15.609 --> 01:09:16.813
We're storming hard.

01:09:17.400 --> 01:09:18.827
I think I hear her barking again.

01:09:18.827 --> 01:09:22.090
I start to weep because I think, okay, this is driving me crazy.

01:09:22.090 --> 01:09:24.487
So much guilt over this dog and where she's gone.

01:09:24.487 --> 01:09:30.386
Right, and Atman barks, atman, and I hear in his bark.

01:09:30.386 --> 01:09:35.248
No, it's real, that's really Gracie, she really is nearby.

01:09:35.248 --> 01:09:36.600
You're not imagining that.

01:09:36.600 --> 01:09:41.010
And I go out onto the front porch and I say, michael, show her to me.

01:09:41.010 --> 01:09:55.614
And my head goes me on to the van and I go, oh my God, four days in June, and she was fine and she hadn't done anything untoward in the van.

01:09:55.614 --> 01:09:59.400
I mean, that's a miracle, you know.

01:09:59.400 --> 01:10:02.149
So there are things that you think can't happen.

01:10:02.149 --> 01:10:08.944
The dog cannot survive being locked in a van with the windows closed for four days in June, with no water and no food.

01:10:09.868 --> 01:10:10.389
And she did.

01:10:10.389 --> 01:10:16.358
Yeah, you're right, it's one of those things that you can't explain it.

01:10:16.358 --> 01:10:25.189
You know, other than maybe she wasn't there for four days and when you manifested her back Because, again, I'm reading, I'm in superposition.

01:10:25.189 --> 01:10:29.328
Right, you talked earlier about how everything exists in potential until it's observed.

01:10:30.030 --> 01:10:32.947
Exactly, I am such a fan of Schrodinger.

01:10:32.947 --> 01:10:38.471
Recently my sister again had misplaced this ring.

01:10:38.471 --> 01:10:43.202
This was my dad's ring and so is this.

01:10:43.202 --> 01:10:50.210
She had misplaced this ring and an earlier version of it that had been dad's.

01:10:50.210 --> 01:10:52.505
She thought someone had stolen it.

01:10:52.505 --> 01:10:56.309
She'd looked everywhere, everywhere, everywhere, for these rings.

01:10:56.309 --> 01:10:57.764
There are more rings missing too.

01:10:58.800 --> 01:11:00.345
She said to me I've looked everywhere.

01:11:00.345 --> 01:11:02.747
There's only one place more I can think it could be.

01:11:02.747 --> 01:11:05.126
It might be in the strong box located.

01:11:05.126 --> 01:11:06.949
Dot dot, dot, fill in wherever.

01:11:06.949 --> 01:11:09.726
I put it there, because no one will think to look there.

01:11:09.726 --> 01:11:19.722
It could be, but I haven't looked there yet because it's such an unlikely place for me to put it, because I would put it in my ring collection, in my jewelry box, so I could get to it to wear it.

01:11:19.722 --> 01:11:24.770
Okay, why would I put this ring that I want to wear in such a difficult place to get to?

01:11:24.770 --> 01:11:26.064
And I said now, okay, look.

01:11:26.064 --> 01:11:27.148
She said I don't think it's there.

01:11:27.148 --> 01:11:31.288
I said so, don't go look now, because you just said I don't think it's there.

01:11:31.288 --> 01:11:36.921
So what I want you to say is and I want to hear it it might be there.

01:11:36.921 --> 01:11:39.104
It might be there.

01:11:39.564 --> 01:11:39.784
Yeah.

01:11:39.945 --> 01:11:40.206
Say it.

01:11:40.206 --> 01:11:41.328
She said it might be there.

01:11:41.328 --> 01:11:42.269
I said you know what?

01:11:42.269 --> 01:11:43.270
I think it is there.

01:11:43.270 --> 01:11:44.011
What do you think?

01:11:44.011 --> 01:11:45.634
She said I think it is there.

01:11:45.634 --> 01:11:47.283
It's there, isn't it?

01:11:47.283 --> 01:11:50.007
It's Schrodinger's strong box.

01:11:50.007 --> 01:11:57.604
That ring exists in that strong box until you say it doesn't, or go in there and observe it to not be there.

01:11:57.604 --> 01:12:01.407
So say it is there and look again in a couple of weeks.

01:12:02.029 --> 01:12:02.270
Yeah.

01:12:02.630 --> 01:12:03.351
That's where it was.

01:12:04.341 --> 01:12:05.265
It was in the strong box.

01:12:05.265 --> 01:12:12.123
Yeah, it's not made in Schrodinger, yeah, well, again, I'm not.

01:12:12.123 --> 01:12:25.484
So I'm saying you go back a couple hundred years and they were really onto a lot Schrodinger, einstein, bohr, heisenberg, all those people that said that the universe is not the way we expect it to be, that it is.

01:12:25.484 --> 01:12:42.793
It doesn't exist until it's observed, and it's actually the observation that creates the event, the stuff that's around us, in which case, if it is all consciousness, then it's not as set in stone as we think it is.

01:12:43.600 --> 01:12:45.564
And the label is the observation.

01:12:46.305 --> 01:12:46.606
Right.

01:12:47.408 --> 01:12:48.771
Right, the label is the observation.

01:12:48.771 --> 01:12:56.466
That's why, when you crown the event with your label, as the godling that you are, you have made it appear to be set in stone.

01:12:56.466 --> 01:12:59.244
You put it in that timeline.

01:13:00.662 --> 01:13:19.363
Yeah, let's talk about timelines also, because I heard you say something that was very close to and maybe you were saying this because there's another concept I've been coming across is that we can change the past through our observation you talked about, you know, look looking at this event and kind of redeeming it in a way, almost even changing it.

01:13:20.408 --> 01:13:22.404
Yeah, you reassigned the significance.

01:13:22.404 --> 01:13:28.131
You just decided it meant something different than what you originally called it.

01:13:28.131 --> 01:13:37.766
But it has to obviously be something that resonates with you and which redeems the event for you so that you see a boon in it.

01:13:37.766 --> 01:13:51.470
That's sufficient, okay, like for me, the boon sufficient to redeem Alfred's error is that I found Michael Okay, the boon sufficient to redeem my daddy spankin' my butt.

01:13:51.470 --> 01:13:52.604
Well, there are two.

01:13:52.604 --> 01:14:02.470
One is I learned I was not my body and eventually it changed.

01:14:02.610 --> 01:14:29.609
Dad, you know you can't take an innocent person or child and have compassion in your heart at all, to be lucid at all at any level, and torment that person over and over again and then continue to love you and continue to extend forgiveness over and over again without it eventually being like hot coals on your head.

01:14:29.609 --> 01:14:31.344
You have to change.

01:14:31.344 --> 01:14:34.349
You have to do something to get a grip on yourself.

01:14:34.349 --> 01:14:46.150
And for dad, his past trauma had been like taking over his line space and his behaviors, so that he spanked me and said things that were inappropriate to me.

01:14:46.150 --> 01:15:05.403
And at the age of just a few years before he died and I hadn't seen him in a couple of years, he looked at me and he said I can't believe I beat your butt all those years trying to make you do what you would have gladly done for me for the sake of love alone, had I just asked.

01:15:05.403 --> 01:15:09.948
I was trying to make you do things to be obedient to me.

01:15:09.948 --> 01:15:13.728
You wanted the last time he spanked me.

01:15:13.728 --> 01:15:15.801
I asked him.

01:15:15.962 --> 01:15:19.029
I was like 10 and a half 11.

01:15:19.029 --> 01:15:29.511
I looked up at him and, as he was hitting me and I said, how will you ever know I'm doing what I'm doing because I love you and want to please you?

01:15:29.511 --> 01:15:34.890
If you think I'm doing it because I'm scared of you, how will you ever know?

01:15:34.890 --> 01:15:40.327
How can I show you that when I'm good, I'm doing it because I love you?

01:15:40.327 --> 01:15:44.554
He was dumbstruck.

01:15:44.554 --> 01:15:46.686
He was just like, stopped him.

01:15:46.686 --> 01:15:48.122
He dropped the switch.

01:15:48.122 --> 01:15:49.627
He dropped to his knees.

01:15:49.627 --> 01:15:50.729
He hugged me.

01:15:50.729 --> 01:15:52.465
I mean, I'm just a little thing.

01:15:52.465 --> 01:15:54.527
I've always been short.

01:15:54.527 --> 01:15:55.826
I was a little, even 11.

01:15:55.826 --> 01:16:03.106
He hugged me and I could tell he was fighting back tears and he said to me, cracking voice give me back my pocket knife, honey.

01:16:03.106 --> 01:16:08.090
He'd given me his pocket knife to cut the switch he used to spank me.

01:16:08.090 --> 01:16:10.662
You're never going to need it again.

01:16:15.060 --> 01:16:16.966
That's powerful in so many ways.

01:16:16.966 --> 01:16:18.984
You learned through that.

01:16:18.984 --> 01:16:20.868
You learned compassion for your father.

01:16:20.868 --> 01:16:29.027
You somehow saw through the pain that he was inflicting on you and you saw the pain that he was going through and you recognize that.

01:16:29.027 --> 01:16:41.432
But, as you were saying that, it reminded me so much of so many people's image of God that God wants to bend us to his will by beating us, by making us submit.

01:16:41.432 --> 01:16:43.185
You said something very powerful, though.

01:16:43.185 --> 01:16:48.430
How would God ever know we loved him if we only obeyed him out of because we fear them?

01:16:49.399 --> 01:16:52.907
That's right, and God doesn't want to beat us into submission.

01:16:52.907 --> 01:16:55.528
God wants us to come to him out of love.

01:16:55.528 --> 01:17:04.965
God wants us to come to him out of love and to come to our brothers and sisters in love To try and relieve them from their suffering.

01:17:04.965 --> 01:17:07.211
And living in fear of God is absolutely.

01:17:07.211 --> 01:17:09.627
I see somebody say I'm a God fearing person.

01:17:09.627 --> 01:17:18.585
I think, oh well, we're not for each other, because I'm going to be trying to tell you that God is no one to fear.

01:17:18.585 --> 01:17:19.523
He's no one to fear.

01:17:19.523 --> 01:17:21.244
There's absolutely nothing to fear.

01:17:21.244 --> 01:17:30.172
There's nothing to fear except your own labeling, your own unconscious labeling, your rash utterances.

01:17:33.304 --> 01:17:36.051
I want to wrap up here pretty soon, but I do want to talk to you about a concept.

01:17:36.051 --> 01:17:43.551
We started talking about it a little bit before we started recording, and that's the idea of why do people come into the world?

01:17:43.551 --> 01:17:46.085
Where do you see the world heading now?

01:17:46.085 --> 01:17:49.904
What's your view of the state of the world and where we're going?

01:17:55.015 --> 01:18:14.783
You know, if you look at any toxic behavior pattern that is making you more and more unhealthy and more and more uncomfortable, eventually you come to a crisis, okay, where you have to either wake up from the toxic behavior pattern.

01:18:14.783 --> 01:18:24.631
When I say wake up, I mean observe yourself consciously, observe that you have been unconsciously doing the same thing over and over again.

01:18:24.631 --> 01:18:34.246
Okay, I see the world coming either to a place of crescendo of toxicity.

01:18:34.246 --> 01:18:47.234
It's all hypothetically possible, okay, if enough people can be awakened and that's kind of why I'm come out of the closet as a mystic now.

01:18:47.234 --> 01:19:04.301
If enough people can accept the message that they are responsible for the thinking that is creating their experience, and take charge over their minds, supervise their minds, observe their minds and their emotions being created by their self-talk.

01:19:04.301 --> 01:19:10.975
Until the chooser is awakened by all that observing, where they just say why should I, why should I suffer?

01:19:10.975 --> 01:19:13.201
Why should I?

01:19:13.201 --> 01:19:16.590
Okay, looks like something really terrible has happened.

01:19:16.590 --> 01:19:18.494
Will suffering make it better?

01:19:18.494 --> 01:19:24.309
If enough people can come to that and say you know what?

01:19:24.309 --> 01:19:25.412
I think I've cried enough.

01:19:25.412 --> 01:19:28.458
I think I've cried enough.

01:19:28.458 --> 01:19:38.859
I think now I'm going to live in tribute to love by being heroic in what I do, by loving heroically.

01:19:39.961 --> 01:19:47.537
Okay, if enough people can come to that, then the world has a chance of not coming to a negative crescendo.

01:19:47.537 --> 01:20:05.298
It can just sort of even out undo the toxicity, lessen the fear of the people who are right now, like in the United States, we have such a divisiveness and I've talked to a lot of people on the other side.

01:20:05.298 --> 01:20:10.030
I used to be in that camp in that party.

01:20:10.030 --> 01:20:17.301
Now I'm not particularly either, but they're all in fear.

01:20:17.301 --> 01:20:26.936
That's why the news media has discovered that frightened, angry people check the news more so they can sell more ad space okay.

01:20:26.936 --> 01:20:31.712
So they couch everything in the most alarming terms to get people to keep coming back.

01:20:32.132 --> 01:20:32.974
This is toxic.

01:20:32.974 --> 01:20:34.837
This is not helpful.

01:20:34.837 --> 01:20:36.641
This is not in concert with the will.

01:20:36.641 --> 01:20:42.359
That is holy, although it serves to wake some people up.

01:20:42.359 --> 01:21:02.278
So if we can soothe each other's fears and show one another like the people on the other side who think we want to kill them all off or whatever crazy thing somebody has planted in their head to grow there, to fester, all right, and we can show them love, just like I continued to show dad love okay.

01:21:02.278 --> 01:21:10.877
Eventually the hot coals poured on the forehead of the person who's being unkind and we continue to love them.

01:21:10.877 --> 01:21:12.041
They have to see it.

01:21:12.041 --> 01:21:13.644
Eventually.

01:21:13.644 --> 01:21:30.435
They have to see that they're creating their own fears, that the fears are not founded in an objectifiable reality that's what I hope yeah, because you mentioned earlier, I think you said I think we were recording.

01:21:30.454 --> 01:21:34.149
You talked about people with NDEs coming back to help look at the rest of us.

01:21:34.149 --> 01:21:37.791
What are your thoughts about other people that who haven't experienced NDEs?

01:21:37.791 --> 01:21:40.275
Do you think there are people that are here for this time?

01:21:42.904 --> 01:21:44.208
Say again what's the last question.

01:21:44.229 --> 01:21:47.784
Do you think there are people that are here for this time that try to help us through?

01:21:47.784 --> 01:21:54.743
I hear a lot of people say we're at a crisis point and there are people that are coming in deliberately because of this time.

01:21:56.930 --> 01:21:58.493
I think I'm just guessing.

01:21:58.493 --> 01:22:03.283
Now, as a scientist, I can only tell you what I think.

01:22:03.283 --> 01:22:33.567
I think that the people who can help with this time and who came here to help with this time have already been here a long while and that the new people coming in are hopefully going to enjoy the fruits of our the older people's influence to make things better for them.

01:22:33.567 --> 01:22:35.411
Okay, because it's like.

01:22:35.411 --> 01:22:38.435
I have nieces and nephews and no children of my own.

01:22:38.435 --> 01:22:54.993
Alfred wrecked that for me, but I am motivated to help improve things for my nieces and nephews and I'm motivated to help improve things for future generations.

01:22:56.314 --> 01:23:03.935
I'm a biologist, by training, interdisciplinary natural sciences with an emphasis on marine systems ecology.

01:23:06.560 --> 01:23:32.073
I know what's happening because of climate change and I know it's real and I know it at a level of physics and chemistry of the ocean and how it's going to change because of the change in temperature, or what it's going to do to the physics, what it's going to do to the chemistry and what that's going to do to the life forms living in the ocean and how that is then going to read down out into the rest of the environment and infect the rest of the world.

01:23:33.376 --> 01:23:40.591
So all of that matters to me at a very intricate level of behavior.

01:23:40.591 --> 01:24:03.841
I prefer to believe that we can, because all things are hypothetical and, being a fan of Schrodinger, I prefer to believe that we can actually, with enough love, with enough conscious awareness being channeled into it, that we can summon an outcome that will be beneficial to all.

01:24:03.841 --> 01:24:20.739
People freak out about the idea about volcanoes erupting and stuff, but if it's a volcanic eruption, for instance, of the right magnitude in the right place, it can actually lower global temperature and not to.

01:24:20.739 --> 01:24:24.953
I know it can do it really dramatically or it can do it just enough.

01:24:25.635 --> 01:24:33.979
Just enough to give us more time to get our act together so that rising sea levels don't start inundating coastal homes.

01:24:33.979 --> 01:24:45.706
But as to that, even that would be good in a way, because the people who live on the coast everything has its redemption are the people with the money and the connections to say, hey, guess what climate change is real?

01:24:45.706 --> 01:24:46.590
My house is underwater.

01:24:46.590 --> 01:24:50.878
Maybe we should do something about this.

01:24:50.878 --> 01:24:53.564
They're the ones who have the connections and the money.

01:24:54.610 --> 01:24:55.153
That's a good point.

01:24:55.153 --> 01:24:56.859
There's a lot of prime real estate disappearing.

01:24:59.050 --> 01:25:03.742
They're the ones who will make a difference when it starts impacting their pocket books.

01:25:03.742 --> 01:25:14.533
Nobody wants to see anybody suffer, but if that suffering actually leads to a good outcome, the suffering is redeemed by the good outcome.

01:25:15.375 --> 01:25:18.702
Yeah, that's what we're coming back to.

01:25:18.702 --> 01:25:23.335
I think that I love your story.

01:25:23.335 --> 01:25:24.980
I love the way you tell it.

01:25:24.980 --> 01:25:31.961
I try to use analogies to help people understand about suffering, and they're like well, nothing would be worth this.

01:25:31.961 --> 01:25:40.833
I'm like, well, we take our child to the doctor to get a shot and the child screams bloody murder because they don't like the fact they got a shot.

01:25:40.833 --> 01:25:43.560
We give them the shot to protect them from a virus.

01:25:43.560 --> 01:25:48.802
Sometimes things happen to us that we don't like, but it's for our own benefit.

01:25:48.802 --> 01:25:54.047
Down the road, we don't get to see it until you and I are both in our 60s.

01:25:54.047 --> 01:25:57.811
When you're in our 60s, it's easier to start to see these things because we've got to.

01:25:57.811 --> 01:25:59.841
It's played out over a longer time.

01:25:59.841 --> 01:26:08.252
The terrible thing that happened to me when I was 12 doesn't seem so terrible now because I can see how it's been redeemed, as you put it.

01:26:09.173 --> 01:26:16.472
Yeah Well, you asked about going backwards in time and reassigning significances.

01:26:16.472 --> 01:26:27.838
I don't know that you can't actually change the timeline that you experience as having been yours For many years.

01:26:27.838 --> 01:26:33.229
I lived in the pervasive experience of my terrible childhood.

01:26:33.229 --> 01:26:41.448
Oh, okay, until the prank was revealed at age 20.

01:26:41.448 --> 01:26:42.412
Right, Okay.

01:26:42.412 --> 01:26:49.113
And in laughter I realized I was the one who had assigned all the significances that made it such a terrible thing.

01:26:49.134 --> 01:26:59.449
Yeah Well, you get back to your point of lucidity, and it's just one of my favorite songs ever is called Silent Lucidity by a group called Queensrack and they talk about.

01:26:59.449 --> 01:27:08.810
It even starts with I woke to the thought of, or the dream of, someone dying, someone leaving the dream.

01:27:08.810 --> 01:27:09.592
That was a lie.

01:27:09.592 --> 01:27:14.225
Someone leaving the dream and this world that we live in.

01:27:14.225 --> 01:27:19.676
When you can wake up in the dream and understand that one day you're going to wake up for real.

01:27:19.676 --> 01:27:24.344
But when you can wake up in the dream, it changes your view on everything.

01:27:25.565 --> 01:27:28.771
It does and it changes what you can do within the venue.

01:27:28.771 --> 01:27:32.402
It changes the way the venue responds to you.

01:27:32.402 --> 01:27:36.432
It changes the way you experience anything that happens to you.

01:27:36.432 --> 01:27:43.713
You're experiencing it as the consciousness in which it unfolds and you're deciding what it means.

01:27:43.713 --> 01:27:46.378
You decide what it shall mean to you.

01:27:46.378 --> 01:27:48.222
What shall I teach myself from this?

01:27:49.010 --> 01:27:49.291
That's what.

01:27:49.371 --> 01:27:52.118
I say what shall I let this teach me?

01:27:52.118 --> 01:28:05.030
Okay, and it's such a blessed place to be, it's such a until we're back again in the eternal with everyone that we love and reunited.

01:28:05.030 --> 01:28:29.599
And that does happen, okay, and hopefully we all wake into the point to where we can come in and out of all sorts of other venues because there are many, many worlds to be visited and never forget our divine identity, never come to fall asleep again in a dream of some venue, of some world where we're a character who can suffer a loss and die.

01:28:29.599 --> 01:28:30.641
We wake up.

01:28:30.641 --> 01:28:41.238
That's getting our wings, because that's what the wings are, symbolic of the ability to come and go without losing your lucidity, your mobile.

01:28:41.238 --> 01:28:54.636
That's what I have become, like a piece of the cog, a cog in the machine that woke up and knew itself as the machine and then floated off into the cosmos, laughing, having a good time.

01:28:54.655 --> 01:28:58.323
You know, just a freewheeling cog here having a grand time.

01:29:01.371 --> 01:29:01.612
Go ahead.

01:29:01.612 --> 01:29:03.559
That's a great way to wrap up.

01:29:03.559 --> 01:29:07.735
What I'd like for you to do, though, is tell people where they can find out more about you.

01:29:07.735 --> 01:29:13.154
I know you've got a couple or several books, so talk about your books and what they are about.

01:29:14.015 --> 01:29:14.256
Okay.

01:29:14.256 --> 01:29:16.983
Well, the first book is called the Fiddler's Laughing Bride.

01:29:16.983 --> 01:29:21.435
I assume you can post for me a link.

01:29:21.756 --> 01:29:23.498
Sure absolutely.

01:29:23.519 --> 01:29:39.077
Fiddler's Laughing Bride is a memoir and this is about my relationship with Michael and how I came to these physical, their actual recounting of the events through my life and how they impacted, what I learned from them and how Michael brought me to this place of lucidity.

01:29:39.077 --> 01:29:48.720
Okay, up to this current moment that intertwines with the fiction series.

01:29:48.720 --> 01:29:57.502
In 1995, michael had said to me don't marry your first spouse, bob, nice guy.

01:29:57.502 --> 01:30:00.632
But he had said don't marry him, he's not really for you, he'll be nice.

01:30:00.632 --> 01:30:08.194
But 1995, I told Michael, leave me be 1995, six years into the marriage, michael returned.

01:30:08.194 --> 01:30:09.488
He had been there all along.

01:30:09.488 --> 01:30:20.706
He told me when bad things were about to happen, warned me of imminent danger regularly, but he had kept quiet for those six years and he came back and he started dictating these books into my head, literally a stream of words.

01:30:20.706 --> 01:30:26.338
He lit me up, woke me up with Kundalini awakening in 1995.

01:30:26.338 --> 01:30:33.578
I think I was 36, something like that, and I said go sit in front of the word processor.

01:30:33.578 --> 01:30:35.085
I have a story to tell you.

01:30:35.085 --> 01:30:36.911
I promise it'll be a great adventure.

01:30:37.632 --> 01:30:43.885
And this series of fiction books began to pour out of my psyche.

01:30:43.885 --> 01:30:50.658
Like another of your guests said, they just sort of drop into your headspace and there they are.

01:30:50.658 --> 01:31:05.738
And so that world, that fictional world, as we call it, fictional which is, since all dreams are equally real and equally unreal they're just dreams.

01:31:05.738 --> 01:31:11.837
The truth is one and anything else is a dream, and all mind space is accessible to everybody.

01:31:11.837 --> 01:31:14.685
There's no such thing as fictional worlds.

01:31:14.685 --> 01:31:16.391
They're all equally fictional.

01:31:16.391 --> 01:31:18.698
Okay, so that means it's irrelevant.

01:31:18.698 --> 01:31:20.706
I mean, calling them fictional is silly.

01:31:20.706 --> 01:31:30.984
Once you've imagined the thing and even the Christ told us, if you imagine it, you might as well go and do it in physicality, because you're creating it as a reality at some level.

01:31:30.984 --> 01:31:35.796
Putting your mind and your attention on it, ruminating on it, you create it.

01:31:35.796 --> 01:31:48.750
Well, this world, this fictional series, basically hijacked my life, and it felt to me really weird because I was getting ready to go into graduate school for marine biology and all of a sudden, I'm going, I'm writing, why am I writing?

01:31:48.911 --> 01:31:49.913
I'm not a writer, I think.

01:31:50.536 --> 01:31:52.923
I was like, right, it'll sell at the appropriate time.

01:31:52.923 --> 01:31:59.016
Well, so my experience of this is it hijacked my life.

01:31:59.016 --> 01:32:06.637
So that series, that fiction series, intertwines with my life by so drastically affecting my life.

01:32:06.637 --> 01:32:16.778
Okay, and I found in the process of writing it that a lot of times I couldn't make characters do things I wanted them to do to take the story in the direction I thought it should go.

01:32:16.778 --> 01:32:17.521
They just wouldn't.

01:32:17.641 --> 01:32:20.613
I, and I'm the one with my fingers on the keyboard, how does that happen?

01:32:20.613 --> 01:32:25.072
So I began to wonder about the nature of what was actually happening.

01:32:25.072 --> 01:32:33.036
I was like, okay, I hadn't figured out yet that, since it's all dreams, all dreams are equally real, all dreams are equally unreal.

01:32:33.036 --> 01:32:35.101
So they all, they all count, right?

01:32:35.101 --> 01:32:38.912
Anyway, so that series of books.

01:32:38.912 --> 01:32:56.184
Now I've realized that on some level I've created those worlds, I've created those characters and I'm responsible for them and I have to help evolve them, and so I have begun to interact with those worlds in that series, in later books.

01:32:56.184 --> 01:32:57.649
There's six of them in the series.

01:32:57.649 --> 01:32:59.672
Two of them are up.

01:32:59.672 --> 01:33:15.680
They're called the Vampire Grail Affairs and the Fiddler's Laughing Bride, the memoir those three are all available at crackedpotpublicationscom.

01:33:16.121 --> 01:33:17.023
Okay, yeah.

01:33:17.262 --> 01:33:20.920
Where my motto is leaking light into a world of shadows.

01:33:20.920 --> 01:33:24.109
Okay, maybe we all be cracked pots leaking light.

01:33:24.690 --> 01:33:25.372
I love that.

01:33:25.953 --> 01:33:36.277
Yeah, so yeah, they can find that there and I think that they'll, they'll, they'll find if they read these books.

01:33:36.277 --> 01:33:54.238
They are books teaching all the fiction, teaching all the same principles that are Michael has taught me, but through a very sexy story of vampires and forgiveness and redemption and transformation.

01:33:54.238 --> 01:34:00.215
That would attract a certain set of readers that would never read a spiritual memoir.

01:34:00.215 --> 01:34:14.011
So the two of them get the Fiddler's Laughing Bride and the Vampire Grail Affairs reach a much bigger audience than I could with the same concepts just in the memoir.

01:34:14.011 --> 01:34:22.110
So those are available and I'm going to give you a special coupon for your subscriber coupon code.

01:34:22.110 --> 01:34:25.036
They can enter to get 20% off on the books.

01:34:25.396 --> 01:34:25.657
Yeah.

01:34:26.217 --> 01:34:28.181
And yeah.

01:34:29.184 --> 01:34:32.078
Sounds great, yeah, and I assume people can email you through your website.

01:34:33.911 --> 01:34:45.569
No, they can't email me directly through my website, but if you could post links to my Facebook, can you do that so that they can reach me?

01:34:45.989 --> 01:34:46.350
Yeah, okay.

01:34:47.092 --> 01:35:01.292
They can reach me through Facebook, and then I'm happy to give also my email address, which is Michaeline Moore at gmailcom, and I know you'll post it on the video so that people can find it.

01:35:01.613 --> 01:35:01.875
Yeah.

01:35:02.036 --> 01:35:07.172
Michaeline Moore, because my name is spelled strangely, but you'll see it written out there.

01:35:07.172 --> 01:35:08.435
And what else?

01:35:09.277 --> 01:35:09.676
That's it.

01:35:09.676 --> 01:35:10.238
That's it.

01:35:10.238 --> 01:35:12.922
So I really I'm glad we got to do this.

01:35:12.922 --> 01:35:15.194
We've been friends with Facebook for a while.

01:35:15.194 --> 01:35:17.582
It's the first time we've talked face to face.

01:35:17.582 --> 01:35:20.134
Really appreciate your time being here today.

01:35:21.157 --> 01:35:26.319
Well, I really hope we get to talk again, Brian, because I already love you.

01:35:26.841 --> 01:35:29.810
Yeah, there's well, we have a lot more to talk about, so I'm sure we'll do this again.

01:35:29.810 --> 01:35:32.413
All right, enjoy the rest of your day.

01:35:33.154 --> 01:35:34.317
Thank you, brian, you too.

01:35:34.698 --> 01:35:34.917
Bye.
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Cailin (Mycailin Mohr) Callaghan

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Born in 1958 in Tampa, Florida, Cailin became a mystic at the age of five, experiencing frequent ecstasies and filled with the constant feeling that she was accompanied, despite her nightmare childhood. By the age of ten, she was in a state of near constant exchange and inner dialogue with a wordless inner voice that always counseled love and forgiveness, and showed her how to see the situations of her life in their most redemptive terms.

At the age of fifteen, she had become an empiricist and convinced herself that her Daemon guide, Michael, was just an imaginary childhood friend. But at the age of 20, in 1978, she was killed in a freak accident with horses. She entered the Lustrous Void of all creation and has an NDE, with a life review and revelation. To meet her there in the Void was her Daemon Guide, Michael, and he gave her a life-review and a revelation of what causes suffering. The clarity of this message so resounded with Cailin that she wanted to return to the world to give it to everyone so that they might suffer less. But it was 1978. The world was neither ready for NDEs nor to accept the perspective Michael gave her in the Void.

Fast forward 45 years. Now, it's time.