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Hi everybody.
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This is Brian, back with another episode of Grief to Growth, and today I've got with me Serena Baptista.
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She's an award-winning author.
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She's an international speaker, a spiritual teacher and she's an evidential psychic medium.
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Her latest book is called my View from Heaven.
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It's a 2019 COVR Visionary Awards Bronze Recipient in the Iconic Book category and the 2021 Speak Up Talk Radio Firebird Book Award winner in three categories, so it's a highly claimed book.
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She's a speaker feature for the Life, Death and Beyond International Conference in Greece and she teaches classes and she's a visiting medium at Lillydale, New York, during their summer program.
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She's a presenter at ION's conferences.
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She and I have been on a panel together and she's created many training programs, including spiritual mentoring, non-Dexence training, workshops and retreats.
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She discovered her gifts through her own tragedy the passing of her seven-year-old son, JT, in March of 2007.
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And she learned that her son didn't really die, but he was still very close, and that led her to incredible gifts.
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So Serena says it's her mission to help you find purpose and connection to your highest divine self, to create the bridge for conversations with loved ones who have passed and to mentor psychics, and also to mentor psychics and mediums to be master messengers.
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So with that I want to welcome the Grief to Growth, Serena Baptista.
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Hello.
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Thank you so much, Brian.
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It is so wonderful to be here on your program.
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You and I have a similar history in how we found ourselves.
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Yeah, absolutely, and I want to talk about JT and first of all tell me about JT.
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Oh my gosh.
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He was such a beautiful, beautiful soul here, and he obviously is a beautiful soul where he is now.
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He left at seven and what a young age.
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It was not, of course, anything, as you know not anything that any parent ever expects to experience and just sent our whole family into this pit, you know, into a pit of grief, and we just didn't really know who we were anymore.
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But throughout the entire process, I could feel him.
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I knew he was close.
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I didn't even know what that meant, though, and I kept looking for him.
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I kept saying where are you?
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I know you're out there somewhere, where are you?
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And he would drop these little breadcrumbs for me to search for him and to find him.
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It was really ingenious what he was doing, and you know we think of them.
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As you know, I thought of him as a little seven-year-old, but he really wasn't at that point.
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He was this master soul, is a master soul, and he, his purpose, was to guide me to who I am, which is a psychic medium, and I'm here to help others.
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He is a he's now my master guide and is just an incredible, incredible force.
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He comes to all of my students, and if you do read the book my View from Heaven that was written by him, and if you do read that, then he will also visit you as well, if you are open to that, which I think is so cool, and I get stories all the time about him.
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I was reading your book and, and JT was right there and he showed me he was there by doing this, that and the other, so he's he's definitely a force on the other side, for sure.
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So, if you don't mind, tell me how he passed at seven years old, that's, I know.
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yes both yes, he and my daughter, who was five at the time.
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They both caught the flu and I had no idea that his was going to be deadly.
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I didn't have any idea.
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You think, oh, kids get the flu right.
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And his sister actually had a very high fever.
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I was more.
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She was throwing up, I was more concerned about her.
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He was just uncomfortable.
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He was very uncomfortable and so I would monitor him, monitor her.
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But then what happened?
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On that Thursday evening, before he passed, I got food poisoning because I was thinking about taking him to the hospital.
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It just wasn't getting better.
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And I was thinking about it and I got food poisoning and I was laid out.
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I had a fever, I was convulsing.
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I mean, it was one of those things that the universe really made sure I did not go anywhere.
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And all of that broke at about 11 pm on that Thursday night and so I immediately went in, checked on my daughter.
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She was sleeping.
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Jt was restless, he wasn't sleeping.
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So I just hung out with him and we even went for a car ride at 2 am just to try to calm him down, chill him out.
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Nothing was really working.
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He was very restless and it was about 3 am.
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When we were both in his room and he said to me I was laying in the bed next to him because his brother and he shared a room, but his brother was downstairs.
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I didn't want him to get exposed to any of this.
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And he said to me go to your room, mom.
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And I said oh, you want to come to the big bed, let's see if we can get you comfortable.
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He says no, you go, I want to watch TV.
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He knew I couldn't sleep when the TV was on and that was definitely the cue from somebody.
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Somebody gave him that to get me out of the room, otherwise I never would have left.
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That was my baby.
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He was my firstborn, but definitely a mama's boy, and he would never have sent me out of the room.
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He wanted me to be close to him all the time.
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So I, after having food poisoning all day and being very, very tired, I said OK, I'm going to go.
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I'll go to my room.
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I'll check on you in just a little bit.
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I went to my room and went to sleep for just two hours.
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That was it, just two hours.
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I woke up and went to.
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I was walking across my room and I just had this thought what if I go in there and he's not alive?
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Now, where does this come from?
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Because I, up until this point, it was this is just a standard flu.
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We just have to get him through it.
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He's just uncomfortable.
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The flu doesn't kill kids, right, he's a strong kid.
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And so the thought just of that startled me, shocked me.
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I said, no, I'm not, I'm not going there.
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I went to his doorway and he was very peaceful, but he was also hanging partially off the bed and I thought, well, that's odd.
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And then I saw his chest wasn't moving and at that point I realized that what I had thought before was probably what had happened Screamed for my husband.
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He came up.
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Jt was a big boy, for being seven, he was a pretty big kid.
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So my husband got him on the ground, I started CPR and my husband called 911.
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And as I was doing CPR I could sense that JT wasn't there anymore, and again I had no idea how I knew this.
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I continued until the police came.
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They took over doing the CPR, then EMS came, the fire trucks came, and this was all at six in the morning, and so they worked on him for 45 minutes here and tried to get him back.
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And then they took him to the hospital and worked on him for another hour trying to get him back and at that point, obviously, he had decided not to come back as much as I pleaded and screamed at him driving to the hospital.
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I screamed to get back and come back to me, and I was sure that he would do that.
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I mean, this doesn't happen, right, this doesn't happen.
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We were in this alternate reality where this happened.
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You just never think.
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You just never think in your wildest dreams that this would happen.
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But it did, yes.
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It sounds almost exactly like our story.
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Wow, yeah, with Shayna.
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Well, it wasn't flu, she just didn't wake up one morning.
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But you know I went for a walk that morning and I came back and I was in my office working and my wife had been trying to reach her by text because Shayna was supposed to work.
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We have a business in the home and Shayna was supposed to come down to work and it was kidney prayer late and Twana thought she's just sleeping in and we went in and you know she wasn't responding.
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So I know that feeling CPR yelling at the top of my lungs, thinking maybe sometimes you hear me and come back yes, Going to the hospital and for me, you know, just like not accepting the fact that she wasn't coming back.
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It's like I, even though I should have known intellectually, because she hadn't been breathing for at that point Nobody knows how long, but they worked on her for quite a while.
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So, as you're telling that it for her parents who have gone through this, you know you understand what we're talking about.
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It's just, it's like surreal.
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It is surreal, absolutely surreal.
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And I even asked the officer, because the ambulance left with JT.
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I didn't even know it, I wasn't even dressed yet.
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So I went up, threw on some clothes and came back down and I said what are his chances?
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And he hemmed, and hot, you know.
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He knew, but he didn't want to say it.
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So he said well, he was still a little warm, and so I held on to that.
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Yeah, and while they were working on him, I'm in my bedroom, I'm screaming at him, and I don't know if they, if they hear that, you know, I thought that they would think that I was not screaming at my child to get back into his body.
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But that's what I was doing at the time.
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Again, I wasn't a medium.
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Well, I surely was, but I didn't know.
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I was a medium, didn't know, I was psychic.
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I just was trying to pull out all the stops and get that kid back, and he had other plans, obviously.
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Yeah, yeah.
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So what were your beliefs at that time?
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In terms of you weren't a medium yet, so what were your beliefs about what happens when we pass?
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I do.
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I did believe that we had something after this.
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There was enough evidence.
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I had enough experiences in my life.
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My step brother passed when I was 17 and came to me in dreams and visions and all of that, and so I knew that there was something after and I knew it was beautiful.
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I didn't know what the extent was, I didn't know how they got there or anything like that, but you know as well as I do and other people who are listening who have lost children.
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Once that happens, everything that you believed, everything that you thought was real and true, is demolished, it is leveled, and you have to rebuild that, and that's what I found myself doing.
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Well, what are my beliefs?
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Where is my son?
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How do I get back to him?
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How do I find him?
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And again, I knew that he was there.
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I could just sense that, but I didn't know how to find him.
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And again, thanks to his tenacity, he was very determined in getting me the books that I needed to read and the people who I needed to know and be introduced to, and all of that.
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It was a boom, boom, boom process and before I knew it, I had found him.
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I had found him, so he brought books to people and things into your life.
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That happened first or did the mediumship happen first?
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No, that happened first I don't know if I would have found the mediumship without that.
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The one book that really really opened my eyes was Journey of Souls by Michael Newton, phd.
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And I was reading that and decided that I needed to have one of those life-between-life aggressions.
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And to see, because everybody I had intuitive friends again I didn't think I was intuitive intuitive friends say oh, he's got big plans for you.
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You agreed to this and I really wanted to slap them.
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I don't know if people told you that, but I wanted to slap them because I'm like what do you mean?
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I agreed to this.
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I agreed to have my son die from the flu.
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What was I thinking if that was the case?
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So he brought Journey of Souls to me and I read that and I said I have to have one of these life-between-life regressions.
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And so I contacted the LBL person that was in my area in Colorado at the time and on the phone message they said well, there's a six-month wait and all of that.
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And I thought, oh gosh, well, I'm just going to go ahead and leave my number anyway, because I have to get this done.
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Within two minutes they had called me back and said they had a cancellation for the following week and did.
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I want it, and at that point I'm saying, oh yeah, yes, yes, yes, I have to find these answers, I have to figure this out.
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And so I did.
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I went to the life-between-lives regression and it was an off the wall, off the charts experience.
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I found him again.
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I did see that.
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I agreed to it.
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In fact, he showed me this vision of us, the soul family, sitting around a table and me saying oh yeah, that sounds like a great idea, let's do it.
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I heard myself saying that, knowing that it was.
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Was it your idea or his idea?
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I'm just going to have to ask.
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It was his idea.
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I think it was the same though I was just agreeing to it.
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I was agreeing that, yes, this is a great idea, let's do this.
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And once I saw that in that life-between-lives regression, I thought, okay, I didn't understand it.
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I didn't understand contracts at the time or anything like that but I learned.
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I learned very quickly from that moment forward and I did more research.
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I'm an engineer.
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By previous life, I was a software engineer and so I have that mindset of research and analyze and all of that.
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So I went there in order to find the intuitive and open myself up.
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But that was really the beginning.
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Was that life-between-lives regression?
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So then, what was your first experience with mediumship?
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So then I had a.
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After that I was led to have a mediumship reading by someone.
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It was a phone reading.
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I had never met this person.
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They were in California, I was in Colorado, I was through a friend.
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I never recommend opening up the yellow pages and doing the psychic's RS.
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I wanted to understand that it was someone who they had previous experience with them.
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I was very skeptical.
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I really was.
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So I had this session and the first thing she didn't even say anything about JT.
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She said I have your guides here and they say you have a contract that you're doing a contract.
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I said well, I'm not really.
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She says you're not signing for a house or anything like that.
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I said no, and she said oh, this is your contract.
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I had no idea what she was talking about.
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She says it has very thick ink on it.
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And then she said did you know you were a medium?
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You're just like me.
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You are the bridge between this world and the next.
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And I said I had no idea.
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What do you do?
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Do you just wake up and you can start talking to dead people?
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I mean, how does that work?
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And she says training, training, training.
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And so we talked for a bit.
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I did get into training right away and my abilities flew in.
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It was so fast.
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I didn't even know what I was doing.
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It was one of those situations where kids started coming to me from the other side to get messages to their parents.
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I didn't know about boundaries, I didn't know about, I couldn't even hear clearly yet, and Claire audiences is one of my dominant Claire's and I really hadn't expanded that yet and so I was just flying blind.
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But I did it and I continued to do it and to get those messages.
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Edit yeah, that's so, did you just?
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Yeah, that's so.
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Did you?
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Just you start taking training and then you opened up?
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Or when she told you were a medium, then that's when you opened up.
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Well, that's a very good question.
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You know, I do feel that once she told me I was a medium, I was open to it but it really wasn't until I went into the training that I could experience it, because we all have the Claire's.
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We all have hearing, feeling, seeing and knowing.
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And mine at the time was feeling I could feel everything and I could feel JT around.
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But there wasn't that communication, there wasn't that connection.
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And so it wasn't until I got into training, where I trained my other players to hear mainly, and and then that's when things really opened up and I could start hearing from the other side.
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And that's one thing that the medium said in that very first Session that we had together.
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She said oh, your guides tell me you can hear them Started laughing.
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I said I can't hear them.
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What do you mean I can hear them.
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And at that moment, in a strong male voice in my head I heard yes, you can hear us.
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And it was a little freaky at the time because I had just discovered who I was.
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But at that point I said, okay, I guess I can hear.
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And that became again my dominant Claire.
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But I had to train it.
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I did not just, I didn't just open, I needed to open it.
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And that's probably because you know, as a child we have to block those things.
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I feel we all come in with our abilities but we have to block them because of parental things and societal things and all of that.
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So it took me a little bit of time to pry that open.
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But once it opened and once that switch was flipped, it was so clear I could hear JT and I could hear others, just like they were in front of me or beside me.
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So have you identified guides besides JT?
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Oh, yes, definitely, and the team that I have it changes Definitely depending upon what I need at the time.
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And so now I just say, okay, whatever guide can help me in this moment, please come and help me, and they're right there and they talk with me.
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I've had different teams come in and out During my training, during my learning, and now I have teams that come in for how I train others, because I do the mediumship training and also a lot of other training at Kasha, records and things like that, and that's all done by them.
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I never say that that I am the, I am the one doing it.
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I say I'm the facilitator and they are the ones the master teachers on the other side, they're the ones that are actually doing the doing, the teaching and the training.
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So it's.
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It's a wonderful, wonderful connection, wonderful process that they have, that they use with me, and I just love it.
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So at what point did you get the idea for the book?
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Did that come from JT?
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That came from JT.