Reclaiming Divine Feminine Power with Maya Tiwari | EP 500

Close your eyes and imagine. What if the things in life that caused us the greatest pain, the things that bring us grief, are challenges. Challenges designed to help us grow to ultimately become what we were always meant to be. We feel like we've been buried, but what if, like a seed, we've been planted? And having been planted, we grow to become a mighty tree. Now, open your eyes. Open your eyes to this way of viewing life. Come with me as we explore your true, infinite, eternal nature. This is Grief to Growth, and I am your host, Brian Smith. Hey there everyone, welcome back to Grief to Growth. I'm Brian Smith, and whether this is your first time here, or you've been walking this road with me for a while, I'm glad you're here. This show is about making sense of life, especially when life doesn't make sense. We talk about grief, loss, and the questions that keep us up at night. Who are we? Where do we go when we die? And is it possible that the people we've lost are closer than we think? I bring guests on to help illuminate the path, no matter how dark it feels. My guest today is Maya Tiwari, and she carries a kind of wisdom that doesn't come from a classroom, it comes from survival. Maya is a spiritual teacher, a humanitarian, and a pioneer who brought Ayurveda to North America, for most of us have never heard the word. But underneath the titles is a woman who once stared down a death sentence, walked away from monastic life that no longer fit, and rebuilt herself around a single idea that there is power inside us, older than our wounds, older than our fear, and it's waiting to be reclaimed. She calls that power Shakti. In this conversation, we're going to explore what it means to stop identifying with the body and start remembering who we really are. Now Maya has a new book out called I Am Shakti, and it isn't a gentle wellness read, it's a manifesto. It's a plea for women to reclaim a feminine power that she says has been trampled and demoralized for 2000 years. And it's a challenge for men to stop out of toxic masculinity and end something she calls the divine masculine. We'll talk about Earth intelligence, about the bond between all living things, and about why she believes that the healing of the world depends on restoring a balance. Most of us didn't even know we lost. So this one's for you. You've ever felt like the world is not the power right out of you. Even if you've been carrying loss or fear, or the quiet sense that you've forgotten something essential about your own nature. Maya would tell you it's still there. It always was. And if you want to continue this conversation after the episode, head over to grief to growth.substack.com. You'll find an article there about today's discussion, where you can comment and connect with me and other listeners. So with that, let's get started and welcome Maya to Ari. Brian, it's such a joy to be on with your show. And thank you. I love the name of your show grief to growth. It's a very powerful name, actually, because we, we find ourselves as a humanity in a state of grief, whether or not we know it is just been so much unfolding so quickly, and yet not fast enough. And I'd like love to talk about Shakti, which is the feminine primordial power. I'd love to talk about the masculine primordial power as well in Sanskrit called Shiva. But in different traditions over millennia, it has been called many things. But we know that divine feminine divine masculine, it's key to the kind of balance that we must establish, especially today, in in this time, riven with disasters, conflicts, corruption, and all the things that we're facing. And I think one of the most important thing that I would love to address today, apart from our individual power, and being intact, is to acknowledge there is a new time that has rolled around in the eons of time, a new cycle, where we're entering what we call the new earth. And what that really means, so much of the mainstream is ignoring this completely, from lack of understanding from our governance and front runners, political front runners, not knowing how to tell the complete public that they've been lying for trillions of years. And, you know, trying to save face and everything else, but this is a pivotal time. So having this conversation about our identity, in terms of humanity, in terms of feminine masculinity, I think is critical. Yeah, I completely agree with that. And, you know, grief to growth is, of course, the name of my show. And that's that I think is on an individual basis and on a collective basis. So we're going through that as a collective, we also go through that individually. And I know you've had quite a journey to get to where you are. We don't have time to go through all that today, but just give people a sense of what your background is. Yes, thank you. I was born in a Hindu family. But we had been exported since my grandparents time with the British to the colonized British Diana. And so life for me grew up. It was an anomaly in terms of tradition, in terms of melding the colonized way of living with the Indian or Hindu way of living. But, but basically, at a very early age, I came to New York to study, built a fashion career, very quickly, actually, at a very, very young age, became very well known in the fashion industry. And by the time I turned 18, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. And, and so life had started very early for me. And it had actually diverted very early as well. So having spent five years with the conventional protocols of surgery, chemotherapy, radiation, whatever, I was given a death sentence, really, for six months to live. And I took time away from the medical system, because I realized that I had reached the dead end, they had tried everything they possibly could, they were wonderful, they were quite invested in my care. However, I realized the answer lies somewhere else when I wasn't at that point looking to survive the disease. But as it turned out, I went into solitude in a wonderful snow driven area of Vermont and stayed there alone for six months and came back alive. That was one of the most transformative times in my life, but I was too young to understand precisely what happened. And I still don't understand quite clearly what happened. There was no timeline in terms of this follow that and that happened. But I went into I had been in those years, fairly unhinged from my physical body, because going through that mini surgery and chemotherapy and the like, you become fragile in the physical organism. And so I had a glimpse of this incredible vast universe that we are sitting in today. And understood that it was really the divine grace. I had seen visions of the divine mother so many times during that period, and understood that I was not the one who saved myself. But there was a grace beyond that took charge, and I came out alive. And it actually changed the destiny of my path as well. Perhaps it didn't change it, it rerouted me back to a certain path. It was an ancestral path that was spiritual. And I'm not saying religious, because monks are not religious people, they are, they're devoted to spirituality, whatever that means, to human essence, to human spirit, promoting the intelligence that we have within us, the awareness that we have within us. And it really transcends any of the form of modern religion or what we call religions and most of which are control oriented and set up by what I call the patriarchs, or the Cabals, the dark state to control humanity. But basically, it took me back to that path that led me to India, to an incredible Vedic master whom I studied with the healing science of Ayurveda. And more importantly, the science of self knowledge, which is called Vedanta in the language of Sanskrit. So having said that not for Brian, I need you to rescue the moment. Yeah, well, I appreciate you sharing that. And it's quite a journey. So you come to the instance, like you had the success in the fashion industry at a very early age. Yes, that was a feeling a lot of things, actually my age, my skills, but I had a sense of myself at a very early age, the things I was capable of doing the things I was enthusiastic about trying out in life. And that's always a good thing. When we pretend we know something before we know it, we become students of that knowledge, and we then end up knowing it. So you became a Vedic monk, but then at some point, Yes, in my study about 30 years ago, I took the vows of a Sannyasin, which is a Vedic monk, walked it for 25 or so years. And then I was not unhappy in the path. I was dedicated to the path. I was dedicated to the continued studies of Vedas and self knowledge, dedicated to service to servicing others, which has been really the call of my life since I survived cancer 22. But something was amiss. And I decided to drop the robes, not not my pursuit of the inner awareness, but the robes itself, because it symbolized so much of what is commercial today, so much so much of what is a product, so much of what is a product of ourselves and a product you'd like to become. And I'm not going to speak ill of the tradition is phenomenal. And it has given me so much wisdom, for which I am forever grateful. But I also felt my femininity locked down in a certain way, not not that it not that if I were married, it would be expressed in the best of ways and not in that sense, but in the divine primordial sense of walking the journey in a woman's body. And even though I had lost my womb at the early age from cancer, and all of that, I still wanted to express the maternal aspect of our living because in the world that we have built over so many eons, it has become more and more patriarchal, more and more control oriented. Not only where the divine feminine has been stripped from the terrain of earth, but the divine masculine as well has been stripped from, from the male contingency. Our roles have completely morphed into the useless service of the inane governance of who we are. And I speak with passion, Brian, because this, we're entering what is called the new world, we cannot step into that threshold with the old mentality. Yeah, yeah, you know, it's really interesting talking to someone from a different culture, you know, religion, because I was raised in Christianity here in the US. And it's obviously a very patriarchal society that we live in, the religion, we actually get rid of the divine feminine, we just said, there's a father, son and Holy Spirit, you know, we're like, what happened to the mother of this thing? So I knew that was in Christianity, I didn't realize the mother came from the rib of bottom, I think. Yeah, it's just like women are just like a, you know, an afterthought in that tradition. So it's really interesting. And we can look around the world right now, and not even getting political, we can just say, there's something very wrong, the energy is just off, you know, and I think it is the fact that the divine feminine and masculine have both been trampled for this, this toxic masculinity, the toxic masculinity, and what is incredible is humanity is drowning in the information. The collective field is loud right now, right? So the nervous system of humanity is being tested and overstimulated. More and more, there's going to be a series of disclosure, what nonsensical disclosure, that only keeps us riveted with pain, and angst and anxiety. And I think, first off, in order for us to understand the frequency, the vibration of what you and I are talking about, not just the words, we've got to be able to come to terms with the fact that we are closing down the mainstream media to the most extent, because basically, we are being kept distracted. And that distraction is not going to serve us at all. We lack coherence. And what I mean by coherence is that quiet space inside the self where we can tell what truth is and what truth is not, not to be barraged by the overwhelming, you know, and the Christianity is beautiful. If we go back to the original crystals, the Christi, the crystalline, exquisite thing that's unfolding today, we have more Christ energy in the university in the new earth than we have probably ever had on earth. It's not about the second coming of Christ or that notion, although we can play into that notion. It's a limiting notion. But it is, in fact, what is reformatting. It is the crystalline energy that is reformatting our very cellular tissue, our bio, our biobodies and mind. And, and so it is, it never been about the religion. Religions were formatted like governments were formatted, political, social, political, religiosity, in order to to have yet another arm of control over humanity. So we are just incredible spiritual beings, whatever namtutur was given to us, we're spiritual beings. And if we need to get to get past the old system, we need to already forsake it. We need to forsake and forgive, not being the state of angst and rebellion and reaction. We're not going to win a war by reacting with angst and anxiety. And you've lied to us for 3000 million years. That's not going to help. Okay, we swallow the truth. But we have a great gift that is awaiting us. The gift of sentiency, the gift of reclaiming our awareness as human beings, the gift of knowing that we were never just locked down, manipulated, preyed upon creature. Yeah, we are an amazing consciousness. It's very, very interesting. We're having this conversation right now, because I've in my my experience recently, I've been having so many people from different spiritual backgrounds saying there's something happening, there's something coming, there's a there's a shift coming in humanity. And it's, you know, you're just you're confirming for me, what I've heard from from other people, that there's kind of an awakening coming. But I love what you're saying. It's like, we're not we're not here to fight fire with fire. We're not we're not destruct to, to be angry about, you know, the past and to get locked into even fact, right now, even with the close disclosure, it's just another distraction. You know, like the Epstein files, and everybody's talking about the Epstein files here and people and it's like, that's not important. You know, let's look at the underground of Israel and what was just excavated, which is not in the news, the darkness, the deep darkness, the stargates that have been manipulated and taken over, that has now been restored to it, there's been a magnificent amount of magnanimous work being done around the planet with the great central sun with the solar storms that we are about to receive. All of it is recalibrating the human cellular body or our and if we just stop for a moment, if we just cut free from the daily routine of the fears, and we've got to do this, and we've got to accomplish this and all of the the stuff we've been taught to do and to be, we're not becoming anything. We've always been that central intelligence, that the intelligence that the earth has, we have so much to celebrate and at the same time, we have so much to look forward to, but we've got to do the deep inner work and this is the juncture and thank you for allowing me to speak to this brand, because it seemed like we are all avoiding it in the mainstream and we cannot avoid it. Even the most brilliant people are saying, well, it's a theory and now it's not a theory. It's a happening. It's a happening right now where our ability to stay grounded and compassionate and sovereign while the world changes in visible and invisible way is the key to where we are right now. We have got to retain that. We've got to take it back. Yeah, absolutely. 100%. I totally agree with that. So for people that don't understand what the divine, let's talk about the divine feminine, because I know you said you didn't want to just just talk about that, but a lot of us don't even know there is a divine feminine. Well, all we know is this this masculine energy that we've been just inundated with. So let's talk about what Shakti actually is. Shakti is the primordial force that gives birth to the entire universe, the manifesting energies, both at the level of manifesting an entire universe and then dissolving the entire universe. And also it's not just the power to give birth to babies and the power. It is the power to be sovereign and to hold together everything that has been manifested, the protection of our good earth, the protection of our family, the safeguarding of the human intelligence in terms of how it unfolds. Shakti is vast. And it just so happens that the pro-creative powers of it is held in the woman's body. And in all in all female species as well, but the pro-creative free will power is held in the woman's body. And because animals are exempt from the free will, as humanity is not. And it is because of this free will that we that free will has been actually locked down and it has been polarized and it has been stolen and it has been misused and it has been aged with an open door, all of it over a long time. So I think one of the first basis of understanding what has happened to us is yes, we can mourn for a short while that all of this critical divesting of our own energies has happened, the deterioration of it, the stamp down of it. But we don't have too much time to mourn either right now. But we can jump to this incredible terrain of forgiveness. Because as soon as we can jump to forgiveness, we are free. We are free of the past. We are free of who did what, when, where and how and how long 26,000 years was the last elliptical cycle by the way, the last great universal eclipse was 26, 25,772 years ago, actually. So we don't have time to mourn all that. And nor is it necessary. If we can come back to what every basis of every ancient religion, when it was pure, when there was no articulation of power around it, when it was not a commodity, if we can get back to the basic understanding of not only forgiveness, but kindness, I accept, I want to scan my life for everything that is unkind, everything that I have been unkind to myself, all the pressures that we live under, that's total unkindness to ourselves. The pressure of having to live a certain way of having to earn a certain amount of money, of having to live in a certain neighborhood, of having to buy certain shoes for our children, of having to keep up with the keep up with the keep up. That's total unkindness. It's brutal. It's riven with pain. So if we can begin to quieten all of that need to be and to become inside of us, then we are at a very good starting point of where we can take back our frequency. We've got to get rid of it from the fear, urgency, conflict, survival-based interpretation, all of these things. We've got to strip them, strip, strip, strip, strip the family down to where we have our basic incredible needs. And please, please, please, it's not about talking about vegetarianism, but we've got to stop murdering the animals and calling it a feast that I've written about that for what, centuries now? Centuries in terms of, since I survived cancer, my first book, A Life of Balance, what is it, what is it to understand the energies in our own being with the earth? And we have got to, because in protecting mother earth, we protect the earth within ourself, the divine feminine of our own soul. In protecting the divine feminine of our own spirit and soul and physical body, which is always failing anyway, then we are also protecting the Shiva, the masculine divine energies. And they begin to step up into that empowerment because we cannot know about the divine feminine without knowing about the divine masculine. And what is the primordial energy of the divine masculine? It is to hold the field stable. It is to stabilize. It is to give that strength and power that contains that which is being manifested in the light, in light for all, in food for all, in love for all. And so it isn't so impossible. If you listen to all the stories and all the historical facts that we're bringing in today, someone may say, Oh my God, this is so complex and this is so complicated. And where are we to start? Well, we've always had a nature to contain unlimited love. Unbridled love. It's always been our number one nature. Let's forget the castings of all the religious titles we have born, all the robes we have worn, all the marriages we have dispensed with, you know, we can hold on to the children though. And let us let us let us just get back to the basis of our tissue element longing for love. But we are love. That is the stuff. Love isn't pouring in from the outside. Love pours in from the incredible universe. This unlimited amount of love is constantly pouring in from the vast basin of the universe, not just earth. And we, as a single entity, can take in so much. We can be overwhelmed by the love that comes in. Yeah. And I think something to point out to people, we talk about feminine and masculine. Those energies have to be balanced, not only in our society, but also within ourselves, that each individual has to have a balance of energy. Absolutely. Because we have all of it inside of us, primordial masculine, primordial feminine, one may be more creative than the other. Right. And it determines our sexuality or gender or whatever. And we've got to get past all this confusion with the children's gender as well and the surgical changing of all of that, because it is just a humongous assault on our young people. But another conversation for that one, we want to stay in a space where those of us who are adult and mature can take something from the talk you and I are having this conversation about sizing down the family back to the basics. What are the basics? Our nutrition, our health care, our mental care, not necessarily medical health care, but natural health care. How do we relate to each other again? How much kindness are we using in our lives, employing when, look, when we have disasters, it's not that the human spirit doesn't know about kindness. When they're disasters, even the neighbors that you never liked in the first place, you rush, rush out to help them if they're, if they're struggling, because there's a disaster and we pull together, well, there is a disaster. It's a great colossal disaster right now with all governance, with all the way the world has been running. So let us use this time to pull together our energy and help each other by helping our family first. Yeah, absolutely. So we talked about the divine feminine and we talked about the divine masculine and we've got this situation now where we talk about toxic masculinity. And I love what you said about like, we don't have time to be angry about this, but I think there's a fear from the people who have been in charge that if they, if we are set free, that we're going to do to them what they've done to us. No, no. In no original religion, and I keep saying original because I don't even like the word religion. I agree with you. And I was a robed person when I'm saying this, in all of our spirituality, every tradition, there has never been a nine for a nine or two for two. Never, never, never. And there can never be. Yes, we have, we will be showing the same kind of love and restraint that we would like done upon us because none of us are free from mistakes. My goodness, I need a whole, you know, hundred days to talk about lists of my graveyards of mistakes that I understood that I have made and paid a huge, deep price for, for it. But the amazing thing is we've got to know that we are always getting, we are always forgiven by the divine energies, which are part of us. It's not separate from us. And we have to also forgive those who are, no matter how egregious their crimes, you know, the new earth has a space for rehabilitation. Let me put it that way for loving rehabilitation, not caged rehabilitation, not the horror of what we call our prison system here, but basically true rehabilitation or coming back, having the choice to come back into another 3D dimensional world where we can continue to grow at the pace we want to grow. There is no, nothing is being forced here. We're being given an opportunity that has never been given in universal time. And that is to up our frequency, get into a more fifth dimensional way of being, which is not something new to our organism. We've all had such ancient ancestry. We have been there before. And we need to understand that we've been there before. This is not brand new. Yeah. Well, let's talk about that. You just, you mentioned 3D cause I know you tell people we need to stop identifying so much with the physical. And of course, most of us, that's what I am my body. That's, that's, that's the way we believe. What do you mean by when you say we should stop identifying so much with the physical? Well, we have to take care of it. We have to feed it properly. We have to give it the nourishment that it's calling for. And right now the nourishment because of the energies changing into crystalline tissue energy is going to be a lot lighter, fresh foods and fruits and vegetables and so on, rather than heavy. So yes, we must take care of the body in the sense of it is a temple is a temple without which we can't express our consciousness. So what good is consciousness if we don't have a body to express it? Of course, it is, it is the overriding consciousness of everything. And we don't need a body. But while we have a body, we need to take care of it. But the body can also be an entrapment. It can be an obsession. It can be an I must look this way. I must lose this weight. I must have no, we've got to energize it. We've got to do the pranic work. We've got to breathe properly. We've got to know when to sit back and be quiet, whether we call it meditation or contemplation. We have to know that our intuition is always at work because it has been it is it's the motor that's been driven by the consciousness itself. We don't need the middleman or governments or frontmen in religion or politics or society to give us what we already have within us, which is direct access to our intuition, direct access to what is sacred, direct access to our consciousness. And that is what we're retaining today in Italy. So yes, the body is important, the balance between body and spirit is very important to understand that we're not exempt from spirit, we are spirit, but we have to care for the body too. Yeah, and what you just said about we have direct access really resonates with me also, because I that's what I see religion, a lot of religions have done, they've come and they've interjected themselves between us and the divine. And then we've got a lot of people that look at the government as the divine, they look to the government for as kind of a type of God. And the thing I was just talking with someone recently was telling me that she's getting visions of what's going to happen and the governments are going to try to scare us, use fear to get us to go to really rely on them even more. And this message of empowerment of freedom of going directly to the divine as a as a former Christian, this is Jesus message. I mean, Jesus was like, you go directly to the source, you don't have to go through religion or through other men. Absolutely. If we look at all of the ancient scriptures, and that, you know, we don't have all the body of the work available to us in any religion, in Christianity, Judaism, whatever. But it's always about the direct relationship to creator, we call it, let's say prime source, we're not talking about anybody's religion, we're talking about prime source, we all have access to it, complete and complete and incredible access. And what the government will try to do, because they are on shaky grounds, they have nothing to grasp, but they have been like body energies, helping to restore earth and get rid of all of the maniacal destructive forces for quite the last five years, actually, while we've been asleep. And we need to understand that, yes, they're going to fake an alien invasion, and they're going to do it through a holographic way to scare the entire public. But guess what? The fleets are already here, they're behind the clouds, trillions of fleets waiting to show themselves and these guys are the government studies, are all kind of shaking their heads. Look, they have lost the battle. Now they need to make it clear and prescient exit in the most humble possible way posture that they can take and ask for the forgiveness and start the rehabilitation while we get on with what we must do as humanity on the new earth. Yeah, you know, it's interesting, Maya, I've been listening again to a lot of people talking about this, and there is fear being raised in people because they're saying there are demonic forces there, there's dark forces, and there are forces that oppose the light, if you want to put it that way, but there's so many more of us, there's so many more people who want the same things. We want peace, we want harmony, we want health, we want nutrition, we want those things, and our power is much greater than their power is. Imagine that, and I don't like to word extraterrestrial or alien, these are all families from different the stars of ladies and Sirius and and then from media and Arturian, I mean we have so many star systems that have always been witnessing earth by the way, and we never knew that, but if one of these amazing ancient beyond ancestry family came down to earth and saw how much humanity goes out and have coffee and laugh and play football and enjoy and family outing and picnic amid the corruption, amid the devastating darkness that has been underneath our feet over our head, shrouding our souls, and yet we have been doing this now, we have much less destructive forces because they've been clearing out, they've been cleaned out, so now we don't have to worry anymore because the time to worry we already went through, we were already inundated with these forces while we were busy playing football and and and tennis, and so now the forces have been practically cleared out, they're trying to retain a certain amount of stability, they can't, they no longer can. The overpowering force, the crystals force of the universe is so overpowering right now in our protection that if only we all knew this, if only we could understand this, it's not a belief, it is knowing it ourselves, it is just being quiet enough to take this energy in and saying yeah I can feel it, not believe what I'm saying, not believe what you're saying Ryan, not believe anything about our conversation, they're only words, but we have a way, the direct way of having this frequency seep into ourselves in every quiet moment and every time we decide that we're going to go to sleep and we have an intention to see what is behind the sleep, we have way much less dross now to deal with now that our incredible family of light have been clearing all of it out of our way. Yeah, I just got goosebumps when you said that. Fear, fear what, the time for fearing is over, we went through it, we went through it unbeknownst that they were calling out of the sewage system, they were calling out from under the ocean, they were calling out from all the bunkers of the elites and the wealthy and the and hey we are way beyond left and right and blue and red and green and whatever our political party color is, they've all been involved in this. Yes, yes, yes, I love what you just said, it's so profound and it goes to you know when I started after I lost my daughter I found some things that really helped me and one was gratitude practice and by doing that I could focus on what's going right and it's really easy to turn on the news and see everything that's going wrong and get caught up in fear but I was telling someone the other day people are living longer, we are we are making great advances with health you know in our country even the wars that we've got going on at least now people are realizing they're wrong you know that we're all saying that even what the United States is doing frankly you know this this idea of unlimited aggression which has been the way for thousands of years as we were talking about we're now saying this is not the way we recognize that so we are waking up I think as a humanity. But we need to not only wake up to the reality outside of us, surrounding us but the reality inside of us. Exactly. This reality that I am full consciousness, I am complete love. I have the same amount of love as the Christ has in himself. I am absolutely did about even Buddha was a Pleiadian by the way before this word but never mind that. I don't want to throw the audience off into complete whatever. Look for millennia we have waited until the government gave us to say so to say something to think something to know something that time is done it is cremated it is finished it is beyond ashes. We now have the absolute not who always had that birthright but the absolute authority right now in our own sovereignty to know to think to see what truly is. Yeah you know as you said that you know yet you have the love of Christ you know you individually that in Christianity would be called blasphemy. In fact that's the reason why they killed Jesus because they said he was he was taking on this role. I mean Jesus was very bold about saying that you know he even quoted scripture says you are God's he said it says in your own scripture you know you are God's and and that's when they said but we have to stone this man and we're talking about like some of the gospels that haven't that we haven't received one of the most amazing gospels is called the gospel of thomas it wasn't included in the in the christian bible and when you read the gospel of thomas it's amazing i mean it's truly and people that haven't read it read it it will resonate with you and that is why we have got to chuck the whole thing kit and caboodle yeah we've got to chuck it but we're not chucking it we're chucking we're not chucking ourselves we're reclaiming our own full consciousness by chucking what has been false what has been semi truth what has had some tinge of truth to it what is because always in this kind of governance there has been some little truth yes a barrel of lies yes exactly so it's a strategy we we've just got to put it past us we've got to laugh at it we have to do a country song about it and then take it to Nashville and make it famous or whatever we just have to sing our way through this because the misery has already been done we've already faced it we've already lived it we've already breathed it and we did it in such a way that we didn't even know we were living through the misery as i said we played tennis we went swimming we had we walked barefoot on the grass yeah that is such a brilliant observation i love that you said if you know aliens came here and you look and we think about i just got back with something before we started from a 10 day vacation you know we we went to the beach um so while while we're all saying that everything's falling apart where we're watching football and we're we're going to the beach and we're we're having graduate high school graduations that we're living i mean we are such resilient beings we're that could do this yeah and so now it's the good time yeah don't forget about look we've had galactic forces clearing out the dross for us the humongous depravity of it and i hope we never hear all of it really because basically it was so depraved yeah what has been cleared out from the from the stargates you know that that uh so many 12 stargates uh that were locked down with the whole AI technology we've had more amazing technology from what we call extraterrestrial alive and being used here in in in on earth than it was ever declared they show us this old orient thing that looked like a bathtub that's having a panic attack going to the moon when when there has been so many actually what is called commute back and forth to the moon in the most advanced vehicles okay so we don't care to know any i mean we really don't need the details honestly we don't need the details we just need these clowns to step down you know do a humble bow and exit from from the field and humanity no longer needs them right to reclaim its essence or its divinity yeah and i and again i want i want to really emphasize that point because there is this idea of of retribution and what you did to me i'm going to do to you and that's that's the mentality that got us to where we are and so once we step into the mentality that you and i are talking about the need for retribution the need to get back it's it's gone we don't we don't need that that's that's the old energy that's not what we're talking about so if we do if we one thing that works that i've noticed worked with the students and stuff that i've had over the years and now not so many um how much of your energy do you want to use up yeah yeah in a negative way right and do you have the luxury of that much energy that you're going to miss your chance to elevate your vibration and frequency into the new earth that has that has everything for free your food your earth your beauty your love total sufficiency no scarcity in the new earth no disease in the new earth because we've had these med beds and the technology on earth for such a long time but never given to you to use to heal your cancer to heal your your your your your your your brain tumor to heal your lungs failing to heal any of these things and we've had the technology so how much of our own coherence in a coherence and frequency do we want to give up to this negative retaliation yeah because okay if you make a conscious choice that i'm going to give up x percentage of myself so that i can get back at these clowns great you're making a conscious decision to slay yourself yeah yeah in essence it's not the wisest decision and and once you understand who you are and who we all are we're all one when you when you strike out at another you're just striking at it yourself so you don't even want and we forget and this is another message that every avatar every amazing awakened soul whether they came and left so many we've had that has visited earth and left us our gurus or whatever the awakened ones has always said to us that basically which one of us can live in a glass house yeah we've all made mistakes some more horrible than others some that shocked even me when i was living up in the mountain and so since when have we become totally free of being forgiven how we we have to understand that we're we the human journey has mistakes in it yeah the human journey has darkness in it the human journey has light in it unfortunately for so many the darkness have taken over the light but it doesn't mean that that spark of light isn't there and may come back that that possibility that potential must always be held a sacred well now we've already touched on this but one of the questions i wouldn't ask you because you talk about this primordial fear of the feminine the fear of of Shakti we've kind of touched on it but let's let's go more deeply into that why do you think that is that there is this fear because it is the creative force and when the patriarch have no such creative force and then they want to usurp the creative force of the divine feminine so they can continue to create all the garbage that they've been creating the wars the violence this the rockets the shooting into the sky the manipulation of sky water earth underneath travel they want the creative energy of the Shakti and they've been trying to usurp it for so long and they're so tired trying to usurp it they've destroyed their own masculine divine primordial energies trying to claim what is never theirs yeah yeah nothing can replace the primordial divine feminine period there's no existence without it right exactly so when they just try to strip it from the earth herself meaning every female every female animal every female species every female woman they're they're extracting it they're trying to extract it so that they can douse it down so that there is no remembrance of it so that they can control it yeah but try as they might for millennia and they've been trying for oh my god over thirty twenty six thousand more years so for for the women who are listening now who are inspired who say okay what was my first step how do i begin to reclaim my my divine feminine power what's the what my understanding that it's within you you understood it when you were giving birth to your first child you understood that your threshold for pain was so enormous that even medical description didn't didn't quite match you understood that you carried this life within your womb without sunlight without and you were feeding it we know women know who they are brian they're always known who they are it's just that your grandparents time was the time that they remembered it most and so much have taken over the commerciality the products of this i must buy this i must do this taking over our women today let us sit in that quiet space again let us understand you could read i am shakti it's a beautiful book but as you said it's a it's a deep book it's not uh let's fix this problem and get it done in two seconds it isn't it's it takes us into some of the history that we need to know or we may not need to know all we need to know is this sit in the quiet of who you are we claim everything that you doubt about yourself look at that clearly and everything that you love about yourself in fact make a list what it is i don't like what are the shadows of myself because all of us try to push it in the background we don't even want to make a list the shadow of myself and what is it that i love about myself and that side is usually so slim you wouldn't believe it when people do when women do get to writing down those two column they can find all their shadows very very quickly what they love about themselves become more hard pressed to find so we need to build that column yes and a simple way and the abc way i don't want we're overridden with two million yoga practices with it practices of walking practices with now sleepwalking practices with we've got so many practices that we don't have time to be who we are yeah yeah yeah great point yeah very good point i love that um yeah because you know we what we are and for me it's like you made a really good point because all these practices a lot of time it's just it's just looking for answers outside of ourselves and this is something that took me many many years to learn because i was i was taught by my religion to look outside myself the answers that you need are really within so it's really a matter of just things like getting quiet um i have four very simple practices that that i do um and i and that's pretty much what i focus on doing like every day so you can get caught up you can get caught up with which type of meditation should i do which type of breathing exercise should i do and all those things are great but it's really a matter of like i said trusting what's within you what works for you yeah yeah what works for you you can try a different type of meditation uh we can't force the mind the mind has been part of the problem of our lockdown yeah but we can honor the mind and let it be and go to a deeper sense of who we are that intuition behind the mind yeah you know meditation we could just ask the mind to be we can't say be quiet shut up whatever because it doesn't work right but we can become instead of engaged in the mind we can become the observer yeah that's the witness of the mind like okay so now i've distanced myself i'm no longer in the mind you know warping that story further because someone let's say something happened that wasn't too kind and you didn't like the way you responded to and the mind is now sitting in a quiet place at home and it's going oh my god i i should have done this and i didn't do that and uh oh but i felt so upset and then you take on the story and before you know it you're in a bus then you're on a train and you're in the middle of a devotion and can't swim okay so basically that's taking on the mind when i say observe the mind we have something so beautiful it's called a conscience if we do wrong we know it we may kind of sneak around it but somehow in a quiet moment it comes back i'm not so proud of what just happened i'm not so proud of myself in that situation so rather than recriminate yourself what you do is you sit with it you kind of replay the situation you're observing it like a movie screen and you take a deep breath and go next time i will do better yeah exactly next time i know that i shouldn't have lost my cool or my temper my patience and instead i should have just let it be the other person's reality and and we could be there not take it on you know there's so many things we do and in the quiet moment of looking we begin to observe it and we are at peace with it but if you take it on and you're blaming that person still and that you make it into an operetta then it's another it's not resolving anything so there's a difference between taking the mind on and observing it yes become the observer always yeah that that is i think one of the keys is again it's understanding who we are it's knowing who we are knowing we are not our bodies we are not our thoughts we are not even our minds we can we can we are the observer we are the consciousness that can step outside of that and that that separation allows you to do things like you said instead of beating myself up for something that i did i say oh i could have done better next time i will do better and we let it go and i'm looking at your background of your studio and i see this beautiful christ yeah and this beautiful buddha sitting on the top and this amazing picture of your daughter i believe it is my daughter did you say you lost the family members my daughter yeah she passed away um ten years eleven years ago um i'm so sorry i thought i heard that and i wasn't sure but yeah the the christ figure is really interesting because again i was raising the christian background and i have i have all these buddhas and i've got some um some hindu figurines that my daughter's giving me because she knows i know i love stuff like that and i was like i was raised in christian but i don't have any christ figures but i had a i had a crucifix and it was like i had to get rid i got rid of the crucifix and it's really you know how hard it is to find a meditating jesus statue i mean they're almost impossible to find um yeah because the jerk society if we see the guy strapped up on a cross yeah it will forever be you know it it was a super imposition for the mind it was like you can be on that cross if you don't do what we're telling you exactly yeah it was an inferred the martyr the martyr image is so powerful in the structure and the strategy of of the 3d governance yeah that's a really really good point i really hadn't thought about it that way but that is the whole thing that's the whole thing you know it's god killed jesus so he didn't have to kill you so this is this is you this is this is you hanging up on this cross and supposedly god did this yeah it's a martyr image nobody's asking us to kill ourselves nobody no god no prime source is going to say to you okay i need you to go kill yourself right no they can say the prime source can ask us depending on the way we're constituted in the way we are built through so many eons of incarnations they can say you have all that it takes to be the warrior of light like michael archangel michael with a explicit sword you know and even though i was brought up in the hindu tradition as i said when we become monks we look at reality we are not looking at religion and which ceremony to do and which ceremony not to do because all the ceremonies happen within ourselves we're no longer like projecting it outside yeah and the people who project it outside do it so they can remember it inside okay so there's a reason for rituals too but we we don't belong to a ritualistic world as monks what happened is you're looking at the internalization of your fire and how that works and and all of the other but i've always brought to mind you know the archetypal energies that have supported me archangel michael's always been one of them because i love his shining sword i've always been a warrior of light and i love the shining sword and anytime i see the obstacles in my way i pretend you know i pretend but i call on michael to say just do a couple of you know swirling around there sure whatever so we can use any archetypal you know occasionally the buddha in the in the quiet and the absolute occasionally you know a wonderful uh vedic saint who had such quietude okay you know i think ramana merishi for instance so whatever art type work for us our mind is vast we have been by the way and our listeners need to know this especially the fundamentalist ones and that is we have been one religion or another throughout our lives we have covered every single religious field in our incarnations yes we've been a muslim we've been an indu we've been a christian oh i find so funny is i i studied we've been in arthur last week we've been we've been everything yeah i i studied near death experiences and i've talked to so many people have had them and they get they get to the other side and they'll say what's the one true religion and it's just like there is a one you know well i i say that there actually is one true religion but they all are like facets of it because it's called universal law yeah that's the one true religion universal law that applies to each and every one of us exactly exactly and you know it's really interesting uh like star wars you know there's a lot of there's a lot of truth and star wars absolutely and in the avatar movie too yes absolutely in avatar so that that keeps coming through that keeps bubbling up you know as much as the paychecker tries to hide it it's really fascinating how that comes through our art it comes through the creative arts it comes through the visionaries it comes through those who have the vision to to put it out there but right now it's happening in in front of us right around us on top of us around us beneath our feet yeah i want people um be encouraged as you're listening as you're listening to to my nice you know talk there's there's some stuff that's going on and we can focus on the darkness we can focus on the conflict we can focus on the disclosure but also be encouraged that you know what's what's being revealed is is meant to be revealed and we have better days ahead we have better days ahead we need to turn off our mainstream television we can hear the news from our neighbor trust me we'll get it yeah yeah and and just look at some of the reels about what's really happening on the youtube reels on the facebook reels what's really happening with the with the galactic light beings and earth and our transition into the new earth we need to educate ourselves about that we're coming to the end of our time um is there anything that i didn't get a chance to ask you that you would like to discuss today i'm sure quite a lot we need to do a second round on this yeah i have so enjoyed this conversation i feel well so loved and and just a huge permeation of kindness coming from you well i i feel the same from you and i i appreciate you being here and doing you know this at this time and it's interesting you said you you left the the being a monk to come back out into the world and to share this with us and you're much needed at this time thank you thank you my friend all right well enjoy the rest of your day you too was really an honor to be with you bye thank you